Your Body During a Breakup: The Science of a Broken Heart

Breakups are emotional roller coasters. Actually that’s not true. If a breakup was anything like a roller coaster the end would be visible from the start, you could say ‘no thanks’ to the ride and at the end of it, for a hefty sum the memory could be savoured forever with a flimsy cardboard-framed photo.

Breakups are are more like being under a roller coaster. 

Before we knew the science we knew the feeling, and used words associated with physical pain – hurt, pain, ache – are used describe the pain of a relationship breakup. Now we know why. The emotional pain of a breakup and physical pain have something in common – they both activate the same part of the brain

Brain scans of people recently out of a relationship have revealed that social pain (the emotional pain from a breakup or rejection) and physical pain share the same neural pathways.

In one study, 40 people who had recently been through an unwanted breakup had their brains scanned while they looked at pictures of their exes and thought about the breakup. As they stared at the photos, the part of the brain associated with physical pain lit up.

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As explained by researcher Ethan Kross, ‘We found that powerfully inducing feelings of social rejection activate regions of the brain that are involved in physical pain sensation, which are rarely activated in neuroimaging studies of emotion.’

He continues, ‘These findings are consistent with the idea that the experience of social rejection, or social loss more generally, may represent a distinct emotional experience that is uniquely associated with physical pain.’

In further support of the overlap between physical and social pain, Tylenol (an over the counter medication for physical pain) has been shown to reduce emotional hurt.

Research has found that people who took Tylenol (an over-the-counter medication for physical pain) for three weeks reported less hurt feelings and social pain on a daily basis than those who took a placebo.

The effect was also evident in brain scans. When feelings of rejection were induced, the part of the brain associated with physical pain lit up in participants who didn’t take Tylenol. Those who took Tylenol showed significantly less activity in that part of the brain.

Nobody is suggesting that the broken hearted turn to pain medication to reduce their lean towards Kleenex, Baskin-Robbins and repeated viewings of Love Actually. Long term use will cane the liver. Somebody else is waiting to fall in love with you, but you and your liver have to stay friends forever.

The Physical Side of a Broken Heart

The human brain loves love. Being in love takes the lid off the happy hormones, dopamine and oxytocin, and the brain bathes in the bliss. But when the one you love leaves, the supply of feel good hormones takes a dive and the brain releases stress hormones such as cortisol and epinephrine.

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In small doses, stress hormones are heroic, ensuring we respond quickly and effectively to threat. However in times of long-term distress such as a broken heart, the stress hormones accumulate and cause trouble. Here’s what’s behind the physical symptoms of a breakup:

  • Too much cortisol in the brain sends blood to the major muscle groups. They tense up ready to respond to the threat (fight or flight). However, without real need for a physical response the muscles have no opportunity to expend the energy.

    Muscles swell, giving rise to headaches, a stiff neck and that awful feeling of your chest being squeezed.

  • To ensure the muscles have an adequate blood supply, cortisol diverts blood away from the digestive system.

    This can cause tummy trouble such as cramps, diarrhea or appetite loss. 

  • When stress hormones run rampant, the immune system can struggle, increasing vulnerability to bugs and illnesses.

    Hence the common ‘break-up cold’.

  • There is a steady release of cortisol.

    This might cause sleep problems and interfere with the capacity to make sound judgements 

  • Breakups activate the area of your brain that processes craving and addiction.

    Losing a relationship can throw you into a type of withdrawal, which is why it’s hard to function – you ache for your ex, sometimes literally, and can’t get him/her out of your head. Like any addiction, this will pass.

In a relationship, your mind, your body and the core of you adjust to being intimately connected someone. When that someone leaves, the brain has to readjust. The pain can be relentless but eventually the body chemistry will change back to normal and the hurt will diminish.

Getting through a breakup is as much a physical process as an emotional one. Remember that, and know that it will get easier. Keep going. You’ll get there.

536 Comments

Paul

Hello,

Thank you for this article. I was with my girl for 2 years, but I was attracted to her from the first time we met. She had broken up 2 years ago from a long term relationship of 6 years. They bought a home together and one day he broke it off with her. We reconnected on my bday and I took my chance and kissed her. We were together for 2 years but she told me day one that she was not looking to be in a relationship.

I didn’t care. I just wanted to be with her and so for 2 years we did relationship things but without meeting each other’s family. 2 weeks ago she came to me in tears and told me that even though she likes time with me, being with me, she doesn’t understand why she hasn’t fallen in love with me. Its been two weeks and left me shattered. I truly believe that she still needs this time to let herself fully heal so that she can open herself up to me in the future, but I can’t think like that. I have to mourn the loss of the greatest love of my life. I hate it. My body and brain are mourning her as much as my heart. I wake up every day at 5:30 in the morning because my body knows that’s when she get’s up. I just want to call me and take it all back but I told her if she calls, just know that I want her to be my gf. It can’t be anything less and I regret those words every day. I haven’t cried yet today. I’m hoping this is the first day I don’t cry but I’ll have to wait and see. The anxiety is the worst.

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Daniel

I was with my girlfriend for 2 years. We recently celebrated our 2 year anniversary. I moved in with her in her family home with her Mum & Dad. It all started off so perfect. We loved each other so much. We would do everything together, go on trips, holidays and talk about our future. I really thought she was the one and would’ve moved heaven and earth for her.

I always thought our relationship was perfect because she wouldn’t always express how she feels about situations so I couldn’t work on or fix issues I didn’t know about. She has a very good connection with her family, especially her Mum so she would always talk to her about issues, even issues we should spoke about but didn’t because she never told me.

Over the past year intimacy was out the window. It was a mixture of situations we was dealing with making me feel like I didn’t want to. Reflecting back now I wish we did. I could’ve done more, but apart from the intimacy, I didn’t realise the issues we was having. I thought we was in love as we was still carrying on like normal.

She recently broke up with me because of the lack of intimacy which wasn’t making her feel loved which I totally get, but I wish we could’ve dealt with the situation better because I love her so much and saw potential in our future.

When she ended it with me I was shocked as it was days ago we was with each other and celebrating our anniversary. We met and spoke about everything. It was hard, but I didn’t want to lose her so wanted to find out what went wrong. We said we would remain friends which I thought it’ll be great to prove myself to her again.

We shortly went on holiday after the breakup because we had planned it she’s ago. I was hopeful we would rekindle our relationship. The holiday started of fantastic. We wasn’t in a relationship so we didn’t do anything you do as a couple, but it was so nice to be around each other having a lovely time.

That was until I done something which I think has seemed any chance of us getting back together and I wish I didn’t do this because I feel we may of got back together until I messed up and I don’t think I’ll ever be forgiven for this.

I snooped on her phone (biggest regret) and saw she had messaged another guy shortly before we broke up. I’m glad I know the truth, but I confessed to going on her phone and she absolutely hates me now and says she won’t forgive me. I was forced to get a flight home early because I couldn’t be with her and I know I done wrong and I was in another country all on my own which I couldn’t deal with.

I’ve spent the last two days in bed sleeping and not eating. I feel like I can’t continue life and keep thinking why I snooped because if I didn’t there may of been a chance to get back together, but I also wouldn’t of known about this guy she messaged.

I don’t have friends and I’m a bit of an introvert, but she brought the best out of me. I know I’ve lost her for good. I don’t think she’ll ever forgive me for what I done but I don’t know how to deal with this now. I know time will heal, but I’ve just lost the love of my life. I don’t find relationship easy to start or find. I’m just lost living with regret and wish things were different.

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Ivy

Hi Daniel,

I feel your pain and totally understand you.

Please forgive yourself.

The most important person to bring the best out of you is – you. Someone else will come, don’t doubt that, when we are ready or when it’s supposed to happen.

I believe she doesn’t deserve you, and it wouldn’t hurt her that much if she was “clean”. It has nothing to do with you.

She decided to leave the relationship and text someone else – she gave up. It’s your wound that needed to be healed, but finding someone who is hurting you more.. you know the result.

Give yourself what you need. We all are wounded, would be nice getting into relationships as healthier as we can. It seems to me, you need her because you feel afraid of future not because she really treated you right.

It’s not your fault. She was supposed to talk, to show she cares for staying in a relationship.

There are good women who will love and respect you, but please love and respect yourself first 💙

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Harry

Daniel,

Bro don’t blame yourself for snooping one tiny bit. I went through something similar but 10x worse.

It was a good thing you snooped. It just accelerated things otherwise you’d be dreaming of getting her back for months.

She should have told you in the first place, which she didn’t. She was two-timing and then just picked someone that her mood told her to. She mentally crushed and destroyed the other guy who’s left hanging.

Women have 10 options always available to them. It’s only the guy that suffers always.

Keep it going buddy. She wasn’t a loyal girl and it’s better you are rid of her earlier than later.

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MJ

Hey Daniel don’t be hard on yourself at least you got some answers to why your demise occurred. I think it’s worst when you don’t get answers and you are left without closure. I was in love with a young lady recently and just like that she ended things suddenly and I’m not sure what happened I can speculate but I’ll never know for sure. But as they say onward and upward there is someone for you just continue to work on yourself and be ready when they come around.

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T

You shouldn’t have to change who you are to fit into the relationship . You went with your gut and believe it or not, it saved you from even more heartache. If you feel the need to “snoop” the trust was already gone, you were just confirming you were right. It sucks.

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KHLOE C

She texted someone else.She was never THE ONE.It’s all YOU.Beautiful that you thought that way,but she was never serious.Not even with that other guy.She’s playing around.I tell you from a female perspective.You will find the one one day.

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Komal

Your breakup story is similar to me actually not similar its same like you.

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Anushkaa A

I met someone at my office online in 2022, we started talking and it was the first time I got along with someone. We started flirting and then talking on the phone every day for 3 months and we developed immense feelings for each other over video call.I went to meet him in his city and we spent 15 days together. We met everyday. I knew from the start that I did not want to end up with him due to religion and other issues but it was the first time I liked someone and they liked me to that extent. We met and evrhthing but it all started after that meeting . Our feelings were intense and we both loved each other but I broke up with him after the trip because I was scared I’d fall for him more over time.it was hard .that’s why my crying episodes began . For the next 6 months we kept going back and forth . He kept pestering me tonget back , I would block him and then get weak and unblock him . I tried meeting other people but he kept coming back. My crying episodes just would not stop . His name his feeling anything related to him became a trigger that would make me cry and feel so emotionally overwhelmed. It’s been one year since then and we recently got in touch after Feb and I still got triggered the same way . He still asks me to get back , he gives me so much validation and wants to be with me . I like him a lot but I know we can’t end up together so I try to control but I get so emotionally overwhelmed and keep crying evrhthing I talk to him . I can’t even have a normal conversation without becoming emotional . It’s hectic . My heart aches. I’m not sure if this is love or I like him because of the Validation I get and the fuzzy feeling . I don’t understand these emotions and feelings and I don’t understand how to stop crying .

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ruby

me and my long-time bf have been together for 3 yrs plus we’ve been in an LDR situation the whole time. the last time that we saw each other was when we were not yet exclusively dating (talking stage). we were both our first official relationship (although we have been into several flings prior to when we met).

everything seems to be doing great until our 3rd yr. quarrels seem to be our new normal. i started getting more insecure, jealous, & possessive— & it has been negatively affecting his performance in his work; (short background: we just recently got our bachelor’s degrees). idk, i wasn’t like this (at this extent of being paranoid) during our 1st 2 yrs. what if he meets someone more physically attractive, financially & mentally stable, or kinder & more understanding than me in his workplace or somewhere else? i have started to develop these doubts about him because when we were not yet exclusives dating, he has been talking to a lot of girls in our campus behind my back plus he had also one serious fling for 2 yrs before me whom he also cheated. he keeps on telling me that he has changed— & i can also see it in his efforts despite our distance, yet my mind is telling me otherwise. thoughts like him being happy w/ someone else is like a mental torture to me. i can’t afford to lose him.

i don’t have a concrete evidence that he’s really cheating rn, yet im being overly dramatic about it that i’ve been currently avoiding & ignoring his msgs for idk how long because of my pride, knowing to myself that i don’t like to beg or chase over someone. im only doing it because i wanna know if he really wanted to stay w/ me no matter how hard i am to deal w/ sometimes. i wanna get consistent reassurance that he does really love me & is committed to our relationship.

will he ever get tired of my attitude? will he ever wake up one day that im being too much to handle & he wanted a break? how do u overcome overthinking, jealousy, & insecurity? how do u ever fully trust someone w/o losing urself? how will u know if he truly values ur trust? thanks.

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T N

I had one of the strangest break ups without warning. My boyfriend of 2 years phoned me up one day to tell me he was “seeing somebody else now”. I was really astonished, as we had been getting on very well and he had kind of been the ideal boyfriend. Very hurried on the phone, refused to discuss it, explain what had happened or meet up. He then blocked me. It happened during covid and we were very slightly long distance so I hadn’t seen him for about 2 weeks when it happened. 3 months later, when I assumed that the 40 year old man that he was might have come to his senses, I asked him for my belongings that were in his house back. I seemed to be unblocked now and he was all lovely on the texts and arranged a time to come round with them when I was back from work. Instead, he deliberately came round when I was at work and left them outside my house. I was so puzzled by it all that I did a little bit of research.

I discovered he had cheated on me with 2 women and possibly 4. He is a dance teacher and had been inviting women round for private lessons. The one he dumped me for had actually moved in suddenly because she had lost her job and her home. Approx. 6 months later he started texting me and one of the things he said was that our relationship had “been on and off, but he hoped to see me in the future even if he couldn’t see me at this time”. I saw red, because he was quite clearly lining me up to cheat on in future. I thought about it for a week then sent him a message telling him never to contact me again, I knew about his cheating, thought him a disgusting liar and I was blocking him. I then blocked him everywhere.

A few months later, a mutual friend told me had got married. We were both puzzled by this as he never seemed the marrying type and we were really curious what his bride looked like. We eventually found out that he had married a woman nearly 20 years his senior from Malaysia and that he had become a Muslim in order to marry her. Then a few months later, he appeared in the local newspaper feature about local businesses, talking about how he had met his “soulmate” through giving her dance lessons and how his Saturday evenings were no longer miserable. Saturday had of course been our main going out and staying over night throughout our relationship. He made it sound as though he was some kind of innocent shy man who had struggled to meet a woman, when in reality he was a very good looking man who clearly had lots of female interest but pretended to them all that he was single.

So thats my story. A few years later, I find it sort of funny how awful he really is and what a manipulative liar he was, but overall the facts are so strange that I wish it had never happened to me and that I had never met him. I could never do to someone what he did to me, but I guess he has no conscience. Twist in the tale is that we live in a small city and I’m friends with his wife’s best friend, and his wife is desperate to meet me as she is really disturbed by the way he is behaving and they aren’t sleeping together and she is paying for most things, etc. I’ve refused so far because I don’t want to get involved. I’m also sure she must have known about me or at least assumed that a handsome 40 year old man wasn’t single when she met him. I’m actually moving to another country with my now fiance and one of the main reasons is that I want to get as far away from what happened to me as possible.

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Mark

Hi All and thank you for sharing your true heartache and residual pain, which I’m feeling now. After leaving a narcissistic wife of 15 years, i recently entered another relationship probably too soon. She warned me she’d left all her previous relationships/marriages, whilst also telling me she’d never met anyone like me. I fell deeply for her and needed affection after 15 years of abuse. The messages from her were always conflicting but i persisted and developed strong feelings for her. Inevitably she left me a few weeks ago over nothing. I was kind and understanding throughout our three months together. Though i know she is traumatised over her previous failed marriages and she wasn’t ready, i still had hopes and dreams. The pain is strong and my stomach literally aches. Please be kind to yourselves and remember you did the best you could, with what you had at the time. Your posts encourage me that time will heal but for now i hurt deeply and long for what might have been – take care Mark😊

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Sarah

I just don’t even know what to do anymore. I’m in so much pain and heart ache. I was with my boyfriend for 5.5 years. Supported him through everything. I loved him with everything I had but it still wasn’t enough. I knew for almost 2 years he didn’t feel the same way anymore. But I stayed because if it was just because he was stressed then i wanted to be there to help him and support him through it. I ignored every sign he didn’t love me so I wouldn’t be alone. Two months ago he ended it. Claiming I was his best friend and he still wanted to be friends. We live in a smaller town. His apartment building is right next to mine. His work is kiddie corner from our apartments. He works at 2 bars and a hookah lounge which is where everyone in both of our lives hangs out. He is unavoidable. Within two weeks he got with one of my friends. He then proceeded to hide it and have no one tell me. I knew the whole time but gave them the benefit of the doubt until I couldn’t take it anymore and bolted from the hookah lounge one day after seeing them walk in together. He ended up showing up at my apartment when I wouldn’t answer his messages. And i confronted him about it. They have basically been living together since two weeks after the break up. It’s been a month since then and they finally made it Facebook official. He never did with me. He didn’t even have his relationship status listed for 4 years of our relationship. They went on another couples trip with our friends. He never went on one with me. No matter how hard I tried. By the time it would roll around he would always have an excuse as to why he couldn’t. I don’t think he ever truly loved me like he claimed. He has shown her more love and commitment then he ever showed me. He was the one that asked me out and said i love you first. And now I’m stuck here in my studio apartment completely broken and wondering what is so wrong with me that I was only worth being a place holder. He wouldn’t even have his cat if it wasn’t for me. I chose that cat. I was obsessed with it for a week and convinced him to let us meet it and that cat instantly chose him. It was meant to be. And now I’m all alone. Knowing he doesn’t care about me and even him claiming we were best friends was a lie. And everyone around me is telling me that isn’t true even though none of them know him. We made sure to not broadcast our relationship troubles. No one knows him like i do except for his new girlfriend now. Finally opening up to people about the stuff I put up with in the relationship surprises all of my friends. Several of them stated that it changed how they see him. He is the golden child of the group. He is hard working and nice and always there for everybody. Always the favorite wherever he goes. Even treating me this way couldn’t hurt him or his reputation. But now I’m the ridiculous and idiotic ex. I’m the one that won’t let go and was so oblivious to everything. Even though I wasn’t. I saw everything the whole time. Just allowed myself to be used and pretended I didn’t notice. I’m suffering so much and he isn’t at all. It’s like we never happened. I can’t handle this at all. Why do I have to sit here destroyed and hurting and hating myself when he gets to just move on and be happy? I don’t even know what to do anymore.

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Anonymous

I am not sure if you still reply to comments but just recently i went through a hard breakup. I was with my boyfriend for almost 3 years. He was my absolute best friend. He knew me better then anybody and i know him better then anyone. We even lived together for about a year. All of his friends became my friends and we have a pretty good thing going. We had recently fell into this kind of downwhirl spiral but I was selfish and couldnt accept we needed to break up. Just yesterday he broke up with me. He told me he wants us to find eachother in the future when we have worked on ourselves and bettered ourselves. We cried together over the loss of our relationship and then he left.
What does he mean by we only wants this to be for a little bit?
Should i take that as a sign that we may get back together in the future? or is that unhealthy?
I feel like I should just have no contact with him and focus on myself but a part of me doesnt want to give up the idea we may get back together again in the future.

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EmG

I’m not an expert, other than having lived through more breakups than the average person (or so it seems), including dealing with one now and quite miserable. The best thing is to move forward and work on yourself. This doesn’t close off the possibility of reconnecting, but waiting for him and stagnating most likely does. Try to limit contact (or go no contact – I have mixed feelings on whether that is always needed; situational for me) for a set amount of time. Say, 3 weeks. As much as you can, spend that time journaling, talking to friends, exploring areas you want to improve. Who do you want to be in your next relationship – whether that is a new relationship w/ him, or a new person? Work towards that. At the end that time period, reevaluate whether you want to reach out to him. You could even let him know of your plan, if you both truly hope that there is a future for you. Good luck; I know how hard this all is. I’ve had loved ones struggle w/ addiction and thought this article nailed it with that comparison. It can physically hurt to let go. 🙁

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Nike

Please say something to me ,
I loved her almost 2 years but got to confess after I got some courage she also flirted so I thought it’s the time ,but after we got into a relationship everything was fine but still it’s a long distance relationship, tragedy is that we didn’t last atleast 3 months it was almost . She suddenly asked to stop till her exams over after that she said we better break up . I dunno it was last December why is she still in my head ,so unfair and it hurts ,why she doesn’t understand how much pain I’m carrying on 6 months passed why I can’t move on ?????

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Daniele

I’m so sorry to hear about your breakup😩. As you mentioned, you’re not only mourning the loss of a romantic partner but also a best friend (I’ve totally been there and it sucks).

Only you can know what your bf was saying, however based on your message it sounds like he is saying that you both need space from each other to grow and that maybe in the future you can reconnect. I would use this as an opportunity to become the best version of yourself and to build a life you would love to live.

I agree with you completely that if you’re breaking up, you need no contact for a while. Otherwise it’s not a breakup, and both of you are delaying the pain. The best thing you can do is get support and work through it with a professional. This is how you can truly move forward and grow as a person.

Wishing you all the love and support during this painful and confusing time🙌. I promise you it gets better. And there may even be a day where you find someone who’s better for you and the life you’re building.

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Soldier

Hi There.

I read ur previous post on the 7th April. It’s been three weeks past and was wondering if you still have doubts on what to do remember people get in a relationship and out of relationships cause their first reflex of habit in dating is when something is too hard get out and find a better fit. That’s what he is doing and if he doesn’t find anything better they will come back to you. Ask yourself do you want that in your life? The real test of when someone loves u unconditionally they keep choosing you everyday and never give up on working to get better together not apart.
Hope this helped someone.

XOXO
Soldier Girl

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Jacko

Good answer. When you truly love someone. Leaving is the last thing on your mind. You want to make it work. And you’re willing to do whatever it takes to make that happen. Separating isn’t really an option. Anyone who disagrees hasn’t really been in love.

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Jess

Hi Soldier Girl and everyone else in the thread,

You have no idea how much your words have tremendously helped me today.

After the end of my relationship, all everyone talks about is moving on. But I found myself totally an emotional train wreck, clueless about where to start with this gut-wrenching feeling. All the what ifs, the what should have been-s, what could have been-s. What nobody tells me is that acceptance and letting go is not always liberating, especially in the beginning. It hurts a lot more than one would expect.

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Karly

I am dealing with the same thing. I think it makes it better to know that you are not alone. Maybe you two will end up together maybe you won’t but I believe that what’s meant to be WILL be. My boyfriend said the same thing to me in January, and he finally said he doesn’t see us getting back together so in my case, it didn’t happen. I don’t want you to waste 4 months like I did. It was horrible hoping he’d call, text I’d make changes to see if he’d notice. It wasn’t fair to me. I thought our relationship was perfect and was blindsighted. I pray to god there is something better out there and this is the universe telling me so. The pain is almost unbearable but I’m reading that EVERYONE gets through it. We have to hang in there…

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Cassie S

I am experiencing the same thing right now. My boyfriend just said he wants a break and that I need to take care of myself before I can be good for anyone else! I feel that when someone asks for a break that actually means it’s over.
How many people actually get back together after a break! In my opinion if you love someone with your whole heart then you don’t give up! I have never had this feeling, even after my ex husband and I split, I actually have pain in my heart and it feels like it is fluttering… this must be a broken heart. Has anyone else ever experienced this feeling?

I have been texting and sending him messages. He told me I am crossing the boundaries that he has set with wanting a break!

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Serena

This is so good to know, I’m going through the same things and I have waves of unbearable pain

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Robin

Hi serena, I have gone through this phase. What helped me a lot was ..stop expecting from anyone. If you are expecting that means that will control you. Happiness, loves comes from within yourself. If you are angry that doesn’t mean someone entering in your body and triggering anger inside you…you are the one who is triggering that .. same goes for love. Manifest that no expectations of anything like love, support, happiness. That’s why happiness is choice because you control all the feelings inside you. So chose a best option. Good luck

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Athena

Hi Serena, it is unbearable. I’m going through it right now and trying to find hope. I cry every day and journal through the pain. He ended things with me because he felt we were going on different paths. A week later he felt he’d made a mistake and wanted to get back together. I thought that if things didn’t work the first time, some change would be needed before getting back together. Sadly, he felt like me asking for him to have more options than weed to deal with stress was too much. I wanted to continue building a beautiful life together but couldn’t see a substance as a good long term fit. It’s weird when you and your partner love each other but see something like smoking weed so differently. Ultimately, that was the primary reason we couldn’t be together. He didn’t want to give it up, and I wanted my future kids to have a very present and healthy father. I’m in so much pain it’s unreal. I’d rather be in physical pain. All I can say is you’re not alone. There are many people in the world. This is all a part of our stories. We can’t know the ending, we have to take it one page or chapter at a time. I feel like I’m holding myself as a I die each day.

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freya l

Hi Athena, how are you now?
I feel the same as you right now. Holding myself as I die each day. Love.

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Prajaktha G

It’s so great to see so many comments here. I have been scouring the internet to find any semblance of relatability to this intense pain I am in. This is as much physiological as mental. I feel like I will end up alone forever. I’m 24.

I wasn’t even the one to be broken up with but after initiating the breakup, I feel like I won’t be able to make it without him. Don’t know if it’s my own already inculcated fears manifesting it was a wrong decision or if I’m just clouded by my brain. I just hope I get through this somehow. Great article btw, reduced my anxiety by 10% at least.

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Kaitlyn v

I’m currently in a similar position. If I may ask, where are you now?

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Jerry

Its like you have to love yourself and understand yourself everything will get better if he really meant for u he will be yours so don’t worry

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Veronica

It was about a month since me and my girlfriend decided to go different paths. I really loved her and I guess she felt the same, but it does not matter anymore. We had so different needs and the mental illness just tore us apart. I do not know why but we never spoke about our future, no further plans or stuff. I was just so attached to her and grateful for her being by my side. I have never met anyone like her before, she were my best friend and partner. She told me that this decision is for our own good and well I belive her, but since she left me I can not control myself from feeling constant stress and anxiety. My heart only rest when I am thinking about her and when I force myself to stop it gets hard. What can I do? This stress can not be good for my system and health…

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Hannah

I have been in a marriage for almost 14 years my spouse didn’t physically cheat but for sure emotionally cheated and even quit having sex with me he literally broke me heart he also threatened divorce multiple times because at one point he didn’t understand why I wasn’t getting pregnant and after I did he stayed with me but the emotional cheating was recent only a few months ago and still hurts I no longer trust him and he denies me any intimacy and has left me broken and I feel like I’m dying inside I can’t sleep I’m never hungry never have an appetite and hardly eat it has effected me so much and I cry a lot and unsure what to do I’m a Christian woman and want to do the right thing

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Russell

I have a daughter with my ex (we was together for about 5 years) she sent me a message via whatsapp and left my life about 7 months ago .I can still see my daughter.

The anxiety and panic attacks are out of this world and I dont feel like the world is real. I think about my ex 24/7.

I been put on Citalopram/celexa for my panic attacks.

I litterly feel crippled by this and want to spend most of my time sleeping.

I don’t know what to do.

I hope this medication would make me feel more normal.

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Avery

My girlfriend and I were best friends for two years and we were in a relationship for 10 months. We both loved eachother a lot, go to the same college, live in the same dorm, and go to the same Church. We had a lot of fond and fun memories, had both of our first kiss and first love together although we had been in other relationships before. We both had a true connection. However, we are both 19 and I was a football captain at my school, I am very muscular, don’t curse, study the Bible hard, and a, trying to get into Vet school. I have been told by her and other girls that I am very good looking, so attraction was definitely there. However I also treated her well, I would hold her when she cried or was cold, I would always pick her up, and I was always giving my time to her and making sure she knew she was my priority. She also came from a very strict Baptist family where all the members get married young, like 19 or 23. We both worked out good together and I told her I would marry her after college and she wanted that as well. However in the last month she said her spirit had been troubled so she had to break up with me to please God, I’m not really sure why, but she told me that God wanted her to be alone, and God wanted to punish us for being together because she wasn’t called for marriage. It was very shocking because the reason I was willing to marry young was for her, and she was crying, but I had a breakdown where I cried a lot, and tried to make the relationship work, and I even begged her to stay. My sister was there and said I acted like a big baby, but a lot of people included her friends say that is normal in a break up. My girlfriend however blamed me in the end for my reaction and said she knew why her spirit was troubled and said to please not text her again. Her Ex best girlfriend when she told her she broke up with me because her spirit was troubled actually defended me and stuck by me. She told me I did nothing wrong, and so did one of the girls that is still friends with her. One says to never take her back, and another says maybe on a rainy day you all will reconnect again. It has been 4 months and I have been asked on 3 dates and although they were fun I don’t feel anything meaningful. Also in the relationship we pursued God, stayed abstinent, did Bible studies, and went to Church together as well as talk about our beliefs.

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M

We were friends first for a long time, and then I started to catch feelings. Which I knew wasn’t the smartest decision because he wasn’t a Christian and I was, and I wanted to date a man who had the same values as me. But I was sucked in, and 8 months later we started dating. The next few months from there would be beautiful but torturous, as I fell more in love with him but I knew I was in the wrong, and I began to abandon myself and my values and strong friendships that kept me on course with God. A few months later, however, I broke up with him but ironically stayed in touch with him because I couldn’t bear the thought of being without him and because he was my best friend for so long. After a month of not being together, we got back together because I basically said “screw it”, and up until this last Tuesday, we were together. It was so fun, and I’ve never felt understood or loved by someone this much. It hurts deeply and I’m not sure how to cope. It’s like I can’t breathe, my safe place and my person is being torn away from me and I don’t know who I am without him. I’m so broken and lost. All I want to do is run back to him again and lose myself in him. I don’t know what to do and I feel so so alone. I need people around me but I’m so ashamed and I don’t know who to go to.

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mary a p

I know this post is over a year old and I hope you are getting this…I found this site because I;m so depressed over a break up and I had to find some answers. My heart just aches for all the people who posted and I wish you all love and comfort. I;m replying to you specifically though because I’m in the exact same situation. I too abandoned my Christian beliefs to be ‘all in ‘ with a guy. It was my first relationship since getting divorced 14 years ago. This guy couldn’t make up his mind whether he wanted to be friends or more.It was confusing,but I was hungry for affection and I settled for crumbs. I;m broken. Eating and sleeping has been affected. Nothing makes me happy. But everyone says that this will get better with time. And we have to believe that. I;m in my 60’s and you;d think I would know better. But the heart wants what the heart wants,you know. But it deceives us. That’s why we are in so much pain. Ill just continue to work on my relationship with God,and pray . If we pray to Him every day and pour our hearts out,then I think that will help. Meantime I take fish oil to ease depression. Only helps a tiny bit but it;s better than nothing…Thinking of getting a therapist too. Boy,this is hard… I hope you are doing much better!

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K.

I can’t sleep, I can’t eat… I can’t sit in silence without thinking of him. I feel confused, lost and sick… my soul aches. I fell in love. I fell in love with a friend. I fell in love with a friend who had feelings and wanted to date me, but I wasn’t ready. I had never been ready for love. Later I was, and I told him I had feelings too, I wanted to date him too… but he had changed his mind, he didn’t want to get hurt, he didn’t want a relationship. We stayed friends. I should have left if I had the littlest of respect for my heart but I stayed. Because I wanted to be with him, even if we were just friends. Friends in love. Then he left. He said, he couldn’t talk to me anymore… that he didn’t want to get attached… that he didn’t want to get hurt. Why was my first love with someone I couldn’t even be with? Why does it hurt so much… we only knew each other for a little over two months. I feel like I’m drifting into a state of nothing, into a place of emptiness, falling into myself inside my mind… I don’t know what I want anymore. I just hope the hurt away… and I hope he forgets me, because I don’t wish to cause him pain. I hope he forgets me and doesn’t think our love was a mistake… God I hope he’s okay.

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Latika

You can talk to good people around you. Just see do you want this life where you are not happy or positive. Trust me this a process and you are going to get over him. There are over 8 billion people in this whole world and someone out there is waiting to love you. Still if you want to talk you can talk to me.

Latika

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nicole

this is my exact situation, i’m currently going through this and i hope you’re doing better <3

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Liz

Dear K.

There is no pain that lts forever, what you feel is part of this process of growing, two months is minimum comparing with the amount of many months of happiness you will experience with someone that truly loves you no matter what.
Keep up and be kind with yourself, that pain will go over for sure!

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Kari

After losing my husband in a tragic accident where I survived and he did not, I was incredibly sad, questioning my own life and heart broken (he seemed like the love of my life and I have never been more content). In the shock and wake of it all, I moved on quicker than what may have been best. I went through 2 relationships, each about 3 years long. The first one, could not commit to me and was incredibly avoidant, so I ended it. The second one we had some red flags but eventually I felt we arrived at a really good place, we planned to get married and I was happy. But then he decided to end it, saying there was a part of him that couldn’t go through with it and he felt we were best as friends. During our break up he encouraged me to go out with a guy that expressed interest in me, which really hurt. I went on a back pack trip with this new guy only to come home to texts and vm of how devastated he was and didn’t want to break up. Then 4 months later, he wants to break up again, so a ton of come here and go away. The poor guy I went on the back pack was a lovely and kind person and very tolerant and confused, as was I. He hung in there and we ended up together for 3 years of a long distance relationship and he came across as accepting of me paling around, exercising and getting a beer together with my now ex. To everyone’s disbelief in our “friendship”, we did feel like friends. But deep down I am now realizing I did not fully let him go and it was unfair to my new boyfriend. This and distance wore us down and we were not communicating well and made less and less effort to see each other. He grew disappointed because I kept promising I would quit my job and move to his town, but when push came to shove, I just couldn’t give up my town and job. We were struggling and he was unable to express his hurt that I was still friends with my ex and I kept saying I no longer had feelings for him. We were at an all time low, and I started hanging out with another guy I knew that was in my town thinking we were just friends. This guy was very pushy and the most anxious guy I had ever met. I told him I was in a long distance relationship but after 2 weeks, I stupidly kissed him and suddenly it was like he owned me and was deeply hurt that my LDR boyfriend was coming to town. My boyfriend came out and I couldn’t tell him about this new, aggressive, needy guy, He went back to his home but we both knew something had dramatically changed. Oh my goodness, sorry for all these layers after layers. Despite so many crazy flags, drama with the new guy and the pandemic, I ended my relationship with my LDR, now with this new guy and it has been 2 years. I am so disappointed with myself now, the bad decisions, drama and miss the stability and ease of my LDR. My anxious, incredibly jealous new boyfriend has made strides but everything just doesn’t feel right. I have kept in contact with my now old LDR. I am so down on myself for my inability to maintain anything, to not be up front and this new guy is claiming he is madly in love with me, but he is always creating drama and strife (his latest was he wanted me to erase any old “boyfriend” pictures from facebook). I went away for 3 weeks and he said he fell into a deep depression and no longer connects with friends (I have also stopped being with friends). I just retired at 54, have a van and a mom that is 84 so I told him I want some freedom and may go be with her for extended periods which he did not like to hear. My old LDR just told me he may need surgery so I offered, out of the blue, to take care of him in recovery. He never got the full story of what caused our ending. I know the anxious needy guy sounds terrible but there are moments he is affectionate and sweet that it keeps me staying here. Deep down I think I am looking for reasons to flee, my mom, LDR surgery (the anxious needy guy knows nothing about the continuing contact with LDR). People!! I know this is so messed up. I crave LDR stability, calm and ease but somehow got stuck. I feel terrible with this mess. Should I just give up all relationships and be solo. At my age, I do fear missing something really good with LDR, I also just retired, finally. LDR does have some issues (as do I obviously) and I used to get bored with him, but in contrast to this current scene I am craving some boredom. Sorry for the epicness of this silly life!

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Jane T

I’ve gotten myself into a terribly bad situation and really need advice. I had been dating this guy for almost a year, our relationship began getting rough towards the end for the reason that I think is I didn’t find him the most attractive. He treats me like absolute gold and I love him for being him and for everything he does. Towards the end our sex stopped happening and it got more and more rough until I said we needed to end things. Shortly after that I slept with someone and it made me feel terrible that I did so, so quickly. As my ex was and is still deeply in love with me and doesn’t understand what he did wrong to loose me. I stopped talking to my ex and me and this other guy began staying together and continued what we were doing with the label “Friends With Benefits” we promised if anyone caught more feelings we would let one another know and be completely honest. I was not interested in another relationship. But one thing led to another and I caught feelings and once telling him he told me he felt exactly the same.

Although for some reason I still wanted a connection with my ex, he was always in the back of my mind. I wanted to be friends with him. Things got messy I tried having that friendship but the other guy I was talking to could not handle it. Our feelings had grown to strong and jealousy began forming. We were getting jealous about things one another would do and we were fighting. I did stop talking to my ex for him for about a week because I noticed it was hurting him that I did so and seeing him so down was hurting me. That week he was so happy but I was not, I wanted to make a friendship work with my ex, I missed him in my life. I didn’t understand how I was feeling, how could I be having feelings for both of these men. One day something snapped in me and I realized I need to start doing things for me to make myself happy instead of always trying to be the people pleaser. So I hung out with my ex and once I told this other guy things blew up and he told me I had to choose between them.

I shut down and said I can’t do that, I’ve developed strong feeling for both this guy and care about him so much. But I also think I may still be in love with my ex. My ex and I talked, I told him I had been sleeping with this other guy shortly after we ended. But, still has strong feelings for me and wants to get back together. On the other hand the other guy is so broken now, what we thought was going to be friends with benefits turned into so much more… It’s hurting me to see him this way and I have no idea what I should do. I think I’m in love with both of these guys… I don’t know what to do.

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Jess

OMG I’m literally in the same boat and tearing me up inside I just want to vanish disappear so bad 😭

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Nelly

It would’ve been 10 years in December, he was my best friend, soul mate, my safe zone and the person I couldn’t wait to see every single day, the person that made my day feel better when he held me. He is muslim, I am catholic, we kinda had a secret relationship but not. He met my friends and family early on, but I was never introduced to his family and friends, of course I know why, having a girlfriend when you’re Muslim is frowned upon, but I held on because I fell in love and thought it would all work out. My family would question me on where it was going and constantly said I would experience struggles in the future, (although they liked him very much, and they should, he is a great person) I had a deep conversation with my partner years ago about marriage and how it would work because lots of people were saying to me that I may have to convert, the reply I got was, no I did not have to convert because Muslims are allowed to marry catholic’s, this made me feel tons better and I started to feel so excited for our future together. He has always said due to his religion he would need to get married the Right way, the Islamic way, this is when he spoke to an imam (a leader of a mosque and Muslim community who approves marriage). I understood this was very important to him and I felt happy about it. Around a week ago, he came back and said that all the imams he had spoken too refused to get us married unless I converted to Islam, he felt distraught as he knew early on that it’s something I couldn’t do, ( I wouldn’t say I’m a practicing catholic, however, I always planned to get better, due to the fact that my mum and dad who passed away when i was young took me and my siblings to church every sunday, they raised me this way and I owe it to them) and even if I did convert, it would be because I’m in love with him, that’s the wrong reason to convert , you need to love the religion and be committed to the way of life. There is no other option for us to be together unless I convert, I’ve tried. ( he is also heartbroken) So we’ve both said that it’s best that we separate ( I don’t say this lightly, we’ve both cried more than ever) . I guess what I’m trying to say is, I’m torn apart, confused, shocked, and feel PHYSICAL PAIN, I always heard about heart break syndrome and said to myself surely not, wow, it’s f**king real, I can’t sleep and if I do, it’s an hour max. I wake up with my heart beating so fast I can’t even breathe, I want to cry at every second. I thought he was the one, but we want different things, I planned so much with this man. -please tell me this pain will heal. (I’m sorry this is so long)

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Aidan

Oh my gosh. That was hurtful to read. I am an ex-Muslim. A Muslim man can marry a Christian as per Islamic law so I’m not sure what’s wrong with the imams he’s talking to. But regardless, you do not want to convert to Islam because you can’t leave Islam if you change your mind later. Read about Islam and apostasy. Maybe you should get him to leave Islam so you can just be a couple like everyone else. Islam forces people to get married. I pray for your wellbeing.

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nermine

Hello, I have this same situation and it fcking suckss so much. I understand each and every word that you wrote

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Jeffrey

Hi there, i just got out of a breakup in April that lasted almost one year, 2 weeks before our 1 year anniversary. Me and my ex girlfriend got together in April of last year, and broke up in September. For the first 3 weeks or so, i was fine. Then one night, suddenly, i had a dream where she was with somebody else. Another guy. She was so happy with him, so in love with him, and clearly found the new love of her life. When i woke up, i had to run to the bathroom to vomit. From that point on i was very emotionally sick. Chills, flu like symptoms, (i didn’t have the flu, but it sure felt like i did), vomiting, and new anxiety attacks. I couldn’t get my ex-girlfriend off my mind AT ALL. No matter WHAT i did. It was very difficult to do, because we were the very same in EVERY SINGLE WAY. She liked the music i liked. I liked the movies she liked. She liked the TV shows i liked. We liked the same foods. We had the same interests. She was interested in little things i knew about, that i didn’t even know she knew existed. We were the SAME. So getting my mind off her was a very hard task, because every single comfort thing i had SHE liked, and it sent me into a whirlwind of emotions of tears and sickness. The devestating part? She’s not a bad person. I still cared for her, a lot. We broke up on good terms. On top of all of this, i fell into a deep depression because of our breakup. It got worse and worse as the weeks and months went on. I couldn’t get her off my mind no matter what, and wasn’t looking for another relationship because i thought she was the one for me.

Fast forward Feb 2021. I get a random message for her out of the blue. She wanted to know how i was doing. I was doing somewhat better, most of the breakup symptoms were gone. We chatted for a little longer for about a week or so, and i was falling in love with her again. She admitted to me she was falling in love with me again too. We got back together in late Feb. I was so overjoyed and beyond happy, i got the love of my life back. After all the nightmares, breakup sickness, anxiety spells, she was back. We gave each other cute nicknames, playfully teased each other, sent each other long love notes, and even planned our future wedding and children’s names. She promised me every night she’d NEVER leave me. She told me i was her one and only. Her soulmate. And i felt the exact way towards her. My future with her seemed bright again.

Then in early April, i sensed something was wrong. She suddenly wasn’t talking to me as much. She stopped or either fake laughed at my jokes. When i would send her a message on snapchat, like ”I love you” with heart emojis, she would respond back that she loved me too but in lower cased letters and no emojis. She finally told me how she felt a day later. She wanted us to break up again. It wasn’t me, it was her. I immediately broke into tears, begging her no and not to leave me. She cried too, but only because it hurt her to see me cry. She told me that’s what she was afraid of. When i calmed myself down, we came to an agreement that it would be best for us to breakup due to reasons. She promised me this wasn’t goodbye, and that i could come to her at anytime when i needed something. When i would message her in the weeks after, she would only reply in short messages as ”Oh okay” and ”Yeah”, ”i’m sorry” and ”ok.” Then out of the blue, she blocked me. On ALL social medias. Facebook, Snapchat, and Instagram. I was DEVASTATED. I’ll never talk to her again. I’ll never hear her voice again. It crushed me.

As i’m writing this, i’m doing better. But the pain from our breakup is still there. She added me as a friend on Facebook and i accepted it, but i can’t help but stalk her profile from time to time and look at how she’s been doing since. I feel like a creep. She’s not interested in me anymore and i know that. But i can’t help myself. I still have dreams at night sometimes of us being together again, and the happy times we shared. I won’t have any sicknesses, chills or anxieties like i did before, but when i see she’s updated her profile picture or posted something on another social media, i get a sense of fear and start to panic, knowing she’s been doing much better than i since our breakup. I’m doing much better, but i still think of her everyday. I’m not ready for another relationship and probably won’t be for a long time. Is all of this normal? Thank you for taking your time to read my story.

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Jeanette

How long does it hurt for? Going on 3 years now and I’m starting to think the pain will last forever. 3 years of a steady release of cortisol can’t be good for my system.

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Riya

Its because you allowed your pain to be alive. Our brain keeps reminding us ( because of the comfort that person provided) – everything is replaceable if we wish too. what if that person died? you would have moved on right?

People meet for a reason/lesson. You did not waste 30 years – so get back on track please.

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T

Wow! It’s really eye opening and oddly helpful to read everyone’s stories. My girlfriend and I broke up officially a little more than a month ago now. It’s been an emotional journey for a long time as we were doing long distance before the pandemic hit. We hadn’t seen each other for a month and a half and then when quarantine hit we weren’t able to see one other for 4 month’s…. That was hard. I lost some of my passion for the relationship. Facetime wasn’t cutting it anymore, the depression of losing both our jobs from Covid was stressful, and I think both of our priorities just shifted… When we did finally get the chance to reunite it felt different. She was the same beautiful person I remembered but something was just off. I didn’t know how to be with her again and that hurt me. We both had our insecurities about how to proceed so she asked me all these question’s that now I’ve realized had answered poorly. I wanted to give her an answer but should have taken more time to process. This ended is us taking a break. That lasted about two weeks until I called her up and told her that ‘my life without you in any capacity is less light and I am ready to see you again’. We had both moved back to our parent’s houses temporarily in CA. I was in SoCal, she was in NorCal so I bought a car to help with commuting back and forth trying to balance taking care of my family, our relationship, COVID, and myself. This started to take it’s toll on me… I was no longer showing up as much as I needed to and that effected a lot of things. As time moved forward we both realized it was time to go back home. We were planned a road trip across the country that my girlfriend wanted to do. I was planning it for her cause I knew how badly she wanted to do it and I had been looking forward to it also. Had my share of concerns and worries about it but I was able to set that aside because I wanted this trip to help of relationship. So one thing led to another, I was in SoCal with my family and she was up North. I was still being a little distant over the phone cause I was dealing with some family stuff. That left my girlfriend uncertain about the trip and 2 days before we were supposed to leave she called me to say ‘I don’t think we should do this, and we should break up’ So we did…

A few months later I found myself back in the same city as her so we reconnected. And let me tell you, I fell in love with her all over again and I wanted her back. She told me she was afraid of getting hurt again so she became a little hesitant with me about how to proceed forward. Which I understood. I didn’t want to get hurt either. We were kinda playing games with each other for a few weeks. Feeling like we were dating again but really not confused me. We were both lonely and enjoyed each others presence and she said with me its ‘just easy’. I didn’t want to be someone’s easy, she didn’t want to get back together so to save us both the emotional confusion we split up for good…

I think of her everyday.

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Emma

I just went through a deep breakup.
We’ve been dating for almost 2 years, anniversary is in a month. She was my first love and she was all I cared about for a long time.
I lost my virginity to her and I was always good to her throughout the time we were together I never abused her emotionally or physically. But when I wanted to have a conversation with her , she just told me she’s tired of the relationship and she’s been trying to break up with me for months even though I never did anything wrong and nothing happened.

She says she loves me but has a lot to deal with and understand about herself.

I’m so hurt right now I don’t even know how to process my thoughts and my mind feels frozen.

I can’t cry, I can’t feel the pain immensely.
But I was already preparing myself for this long before it happened.
I hope anyone going through this finds comfort.

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Reanne L

Hi there…
I read your thoughts on break ups and this really helped me. I appreciate the information. I’m 22 years old and I’ve been in a relationship since high school for 6 years. Yup. We were high school sweethearts but the relationship was always on and off. When I went away to college we maintained the relationship but he would always lie to me. He even traveled to see me (12 hours away from our hometown) and still hid text messages from me, etc. When I returned back home for summer vacation I took a class at my local community College. A girl I thought they were just friends with sat next to me. She told me one time he got drunk and confessed his feelings for her a few months back. I was so confused because we were together during that time. Anyways, this was the first time I felt betrayed by him. I eventually forgave him and we got back together shortly after that incident even though I never let it go. When I graduated from college he even went to my ceremony. I studied abroad in England for 4 months, he flew out to visit me. We traveled to Italy and Amsterdam for Xmas. You get the picture. We have so many memories together. Despite being extremely toxic, I have love for him so much. I was so comfortable around him. When I came back from Europe last year, I moved in with him at his parents house. I got comfortable and stayed there not working or contributing to rent (his parents didn’t mind). My ex wanted to help me with commuting to work so he co-signed a car for me. Yes, we financed a car together. This was a bad idea…. Anyways, being stuck in a room together we would always argue. He never made effort to go out on dates or do anything. Now I will say for the past 6 years the relationship was never perfect. In fact, we do have a history of domestic abuse. Last September was the final straw. We got in an altercation and the cops were involved. I moved out of his house and from there it officially ended. I took the car and we both still did payments on it .We would still keep in contact with eachother but only for hookups. We would get hotels or have sex in the car at night. Never go out in the day or talk and get closure. My ex used me for sex and I accepted going back to him because it was my way of feeling loved and close to him, in the moment. A month ago on New years, I woke up and my car was gone. He traded it in for a new one. Was going to drop off my stuff in bags on my porch the next morning. Also, he met another girl and they both like eachother. Keep in mind, me and my ex hooked up 2 weeks before. On this day he took my car, I confronted him and he met me at a gas station. He told me he never loved me and it was just a bad attachment. He never loved me for 6 years. Is that even possible? While he was telling me all these hurtful things, he wasn’t looking at me in my eyes. He looked away. Couldn’t stare at me at all. He dropped me off my house and told me to move on and find someone better because he did. Its been a month and im still grieving. How can someone move on so quick when you were just talking to them weeks prior?? Its only been 5 months after we broke up and I miss him like crazy. I keep going back to him because he did message me for sex again. I asked him what happened to his new girl & he said they are “just friends.” I feel so used and I know its my fault for not valuing my self worth.

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Riya

Be grateful that you learnt all these lessons at a early age:)

something good is waiting for you. Stay Positive.

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John

I was with my girl for 8 years. November of 2020 she decided to leave me because of things we been through in the past. I love her deeply and sincerely and worked so hard to change my ways in order to be with her. I went against friends and family for her. I gave her all of me every piece inch by inch. Despite the things we put each other through I never expected her to just give up on me. I couldn’t leave her the way she left me. I feel like I was stripped of my life. I don’t have the urge to eat I can barely sleep, I’m always anxious and nervous, my chest constantly feels like I’m being pounded by a gorilla. I can’t stop the thought of her. I even have suicidal thoughts. I believe there is better for me but I only want her. My heart is literally in pain and I can feel that pain everyday and I have been feeling it for 3 months now. I’m lost and don’t know what to do.

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Riya

Hi, I understand how it feels. Been there until Jan. I understand 8 years is huge investment and you reach a point where you feel that there is no goal and no happiness left. The suicidal thing is also a trick by brain ( to make her guilty) – She may cry for you for 2 weeks max and left moves on. The revenge is show her that you moved on!

This is what I did to move on:
1) I started writing everything I felt and emailed to myself with his name.
2) I allowed myself to cry.
3) I was also not able to focus on work but watched movies instead and felt better.
4) You will be lost and time is the healer.

Believe me – I am out of it, you will be too:) Keep smiling.

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Tammy

My boyfriend of almost 3 years abruptly broke up with me 5 weeks ago and it could not have taken me anymore by surprise than it did although this is not the first time this has happened, this is the 3rd time. Every time it has been completely out of nowhere, happens the same time of year each time and he always blames me for why he is breaking up. He was married 14 yrs ago and she cheated on him and this time he broke up with me he said he feels like he thinks he can’t trust me right now but won’t tell me what I did to make him feel like that. And when I question him as to why he is doing this, he gets angry and threatens me with harassment charges or no contact orders. I have given this man my whole heart and soul and he has completely knocked the wind out of me by doing this and then add to it that he is being a jerk and that’s not helping my frame of mind. Some people think I should be over it by now but I am still very much devastated by what he has done and some days are worse than others as far as feeling like I have a huge void in my heart and my life. Any suggestions to help me deal with this. I feel completely lost and broken without him and don’t know what to do. He was always talking about our future together, we was making plans for our future and he had recently been making wife comments then all of a sudden, BAM he does this. I believe it is his own insecurities that’s causing all of this but I need help dealing with it or need some direction.

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Rafael C

John,

No one should ever cause that much pain to another human being. Would you
feel good having to endure that the rest of your life. Take the lesson and run,

RC

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K. Armstrong

Wow. who would have thought that a broken heart would lead me to google to people who are feeling exactly like me. Ruby I understand when you say how bad is feels that someone you invested in and loved and spent time with is now enjoying life without you while you sit and fall to pieces. I am angry at myself, I am angry at him, I feel like how dare you after all that I have done. I am confused and I just don’t understand. My friends are like girl get over it you will be fine. I know this but I dont feel fine today, yesterday and I dont think tomorrow. My stomache aches like a piece of my heart is letting off gases in it. I can’t sleep, I cant listen to the radio because the songs either remind me of him, or words i wish i could say now. The crazy part is I dont want to be back with him I just want this pain to go away for him to hurt like me and to discover that I was a good woman to me. But the reality of that happening is slim to none i actually have a better chance of my heart healing sooner than later. This article was amazing and deep it is crazy how the brain can get use to the presence of someone and actually grieve when that person is gone. Wow…

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James

A girl and I started talking in the summer. We were kind of forced into talking by mutual friends hooking us up even though I wasn’t already over my last relationship (a total disaster and given the person she was, I regret being so hurt by her). This new girl though was crazy about me and I wasn’t as much about her. After months of hanging out and trying to like her she went off to college. She then decided to leave me and once she left, I realized what I had lost. I fought for her back and finally changed her mind. From then on we were on and off about how we felt about each other. The girl I knew before college had changed and I didn’t realize why. She was constantly going to frat parties, ditching our weekend plans when her friends would all of a sudden hit her up, and trying to make me jealous. I had problems with her ex of three years still being on her instagram and she refused to take them down. It wasn’t insecurity, but I just felt like it should be taken down in respect for me. Our relationship seemed to be endless fighting and she ended up leaving me and I was okay with it, for a few months. We blocked each other on everything, and then one day she texted me and asked for me to unblock her. All my old emotions came back and I felt like I needed her. After a week of me blowing up her phone trying to win her back, she then told me she was seeing someone else and that I needed to let her be happy. Her dad texted me and told me to quit stalking and texting her. I feel so hopeless thinking I was the cause of such a toxic relationship. I feel like a controlling manipulator and a verbally abusive guy. I have called her names before that I regret completely. Even though we fought all the time over text, when we were in person everything went away and we even joked about our fights. I can’t help but feel I forced someone who really cared about me away. This is the worst feeling I have ever felt in my life, and I don’t see how I am going to come out of this. I would not wish this feeling on even my worst enemy. I wish I could have looked past things and been okay with things she did. The girl before college was the most amazing girl in the world and I can’t get it out of my head. I feel like I didn’t treat her right and that’s why it ended. I regret every fight and toxic thing we did. It truly feels like the end of the world. The thought of her finding someone who will treat her right and me being that guy that brought her down is the worst feeling in the world. I no longer have any motivation and I am at the lowest point I have ever been in my life. I don’t feel like a good guy and I wish I could have been there for her.

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adheha

..Plz don’t blame yourself .. you are a good guy and plz don’t forget different situations bring different personalities and as we grow and break we learn a lot abt ourselves…it has happened don’t punish yourself…de most important thing you are sorry and u hv realized ur mistakes ..that’s great thing cz most times we fail to admit our own mistakes …but you are not alone the right person will come into ur life ND am sure u will treat her de right way ..

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Anastasios

Man we are twins seriously i have the exact same story except not college it is university in my country. I know the feeling when someone wants you as crazy and you dont if it ends they change and after that happens everything goes to shit. I can’t tell you everything is going to be alright cause this happened to me 1 week ago and i know how you feel . I suggest do what i do. Try to close to yourself and start watching things i would suggest not romantic dramas for your own good ,but try to fill the emptiness with stupid information for a while after that go to a doctor and talk

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Anon

Damn, this explains a lot. It’s probably been a month since I decided to brake up with my boyfriend. He… wasn’t who I thought he was. He lied to my face and still hung out with his ex that ‘hurt him sooo much’. It caused me anxiety, every day having to face him, knowing he was doing all this.

And even after we broke it off, I tried to be good and friendly to him. Now he just sends messages about being back with his ex and how nice she is, and how am i going.

Help? I’ve already blocked him, but Is there any way to stop feeling pain, sadness and anger when he tries to talk to me?

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Riya

This is because you still have not accepted that he is gone.

You still have hope dear – please come out of this illusion. Your self respect matters – you cant be with a cheater.

You deserve someone better:)

Pain will be around until we decide to let go – Its who you need to tell your self that he is Bad and I just move on. Talking to yourself helps a lot.

Fall in love with yourself and be best friend to you. It helped me.

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Nat

My partner ended our 2.5 year relationship almost 2 months ago. He says he loves me, and does actually act as though he does, but he cant cope with the fact I’m still friends with my ex. (We have a daughter together and he has always disliked that my ex is still around). We had no contact for around 4 weeks and I was totally crushed. Then his friend died aged 25 and he called me immediately and needed me there. We spent a couple of days together while I helped him with his grief and he said he was taking things one day at a time…never know what might happen in the future…was not looking to meet anyone else (he had always been a loner before we met)…he would kiss my forehead and stroke my arm. I do believe that he still loves me but just cant deal with my situation. He said he will always be there for me and I was the best thing that ever happened to him…but now I’ve not heard from him in a few days and it’s like my chest is being crushed in a vice all over again. I cry every day. I cant concentrate on anything. I cant eat. I literally CAN NOT think of anything other than him and I’m now worrying that I’m becoming obsessed and it’ll never go away. I cant see any future and I just cant live in this pain anymore. I’m also drinking more to numb it a little but cant do that forever.
I’m 43. Who’s going to want me? How do I ever find anyone else? I dont want to be alone. I hate it. I’m desperate for him to phone, be a friend, be in my life as he says he wants but I also know it will only prolong my pain. I really wish I could just delete him from everything, erase all memories of him and move on but I just dont have the strength to do that. I’m weak and pathetic. I know if he calls I’ll answer and would go over if he needed me because thats what stops the pain! The turmoil in my head is completely unbearable and I honestly dont know how long I can go on with the pain there all day every day.
He’s young, attractive, chatty, nice flat, no ties … he could have someone else anytime he wants (although deep down has gambling issues and significant mental health issues which he wouldnt show for a while) and that is killing me. Is he dating already? This is absolute, utter torture. When will it end?

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James

Hi Nat,

I was struck by your comment as my situation is pretty similar, in the sense that I have ongoing contact with my ex who left me and the contact is making things worse and worse, even though it’s so hard to refrain from being in contact as it’s so hard to let go of someone you love so much. When you said “I’m 43 and who is going to love me?” I really felt that…I was 44 last week and feel just like that… when you are in a committed relationship at this age you think this relationship will last forever and dealing with the loss is even harder because of the worry about the future.

Have things improved for you since you posted your comment? Would be good to know as I’m feeling pretty lost as to how to manage the anxiety and pain.

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C

How to reduce pain:
1) Block/delete all forms of communication except one channel like email or letter writing -a communication form that is not immediate. Explain to your ex that you need the space and time to recover and that you want to limit contact until you have stabilised
2) listen to podcasts whenever your mind starts to think about your ex
3) find online meditations that teach you to love and feel loved without your ex
Listen to these in the morning and at night before you sleep and any other time that you need to
eg golden light meditation by manjit
https://youtu.be/xOOWMJ4Pmi0
Insight timer:
https://insig.ht/Nh395yb24gb
4) Have a look at the relationship anarchy smorgesboard, this can free up your thinking about what you expect from your ex
Work on other relationships in your life. The loss of your ex does not stop you from loving others, your friends, colleagues and family.

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mary a pi

Hi Nat- I know its been over 2 years since your post but I was wondering how you’re doing? I;m in my 60’s I have the exact same feelings as you! It wasn’t a deep relationship,but a confusing one because he had anxiety issues as well as problems with intimacy etc. But he strangely still made me happy because he was 8 years younger,tall, handsome,muscular and confident. He spent the first 6 months exploring a romantic relationship with me,but gradually began pulling away I saw the signs but I didn’t know how to respond to them. We had a friendship but there should have been more. All the feelings you expressed I am feeling too. Cant eat,hard to sleep, don’t enjoy music anymore..all of it . I actually smiled when you said ‘ I;m 43 .Who will want me?’ I;m 68,and this younger guy chased me down like crazy! God I wish I was 43!! You are so young! Who will want you? A guy between the ages of 37 and 49 most likely.And that’s a good age. I so hope your broken heart is mended and I hope you find or already found love. I heard a talk a long time ago and he said he met his wife doing volunteer work. Because people that volunteer are caring and mature and not selfish. So he said to try that if youre looking for a mate. It makes perfect sense. I;m just mad at myself that I didnt take his advice! But it’s a good place to start. Blessings to you!

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Research has shown us, without a doubt, that a sense of belonging is one of the most important contributors to wellbeing and success at school. 

Yet for too many children, that sense of belonging is dependent on success and wellbeing. The belonging has to come first, then the rest will follow.

Rather than, ‘What’s wrong with them?’, how might things be different for so many kids if we shift to, ‘What needs to happen to let them know we want them here?’❤️
There is a quiet strength in making space for the duality of being human. It's how we honour the vastness of who we are, and expand who we can be. 

So much of our stuckness, and our children's stuckness, comes from needing to silence the parts of us that don't fit with who we 'should' be. Or from believing that the thought or feeling showing up the loudest is the only truth. 

We believe their anxiety, because their brave is softer - there, but softer.
We believe our 'not enoughness', because our 'everything to everyone all the time' has been stretched to threadbare for a while.
We feel scared so we lose faith in our strength.

One of our loving roles as parents is to show our children how to make space for their own contradictions, not to fight them, or believe the thought or feeling that is showing up the biggest. Honour that thought or feeling, and make space for the 'and'.

Because we can be strong and fragile all at once.
Certain and undone.
Anxious and brave.
Tender and fierce.
Joyful and lonely.
We can love who we are and miss who we were.

When we make space for 'Yes, and ...' we gently hold our contradictions in one hand, and let go of the need to fight them. This is how we make loving space for wholeness, in us and in our children. 

We validate what is real while making space for what is possible.
All feelings are important. What’s also important is the story - the ‘why’ - we put to those feelings. 

When our children are distressed, anxious, in fight or flight, we’ll feel it. We’re meant to. It’s one of the ways we keep them safe. Our brains tell us they’re in danger and our bodies organise to fight for them or flee with them.

When there is an actual threat, this is a perfect response. But when the anxiety is in response to something important, brave, new, hard, that instinct to fight for them or flee with them might not be so helpful.

When you can, take a moment to be clear about the ‘why’. Are they in danger or

Ask, ‘Do I feel like this because they’re in danger, or because they’re doing something hard, brave, new, important?’ 

‘Is this a time for me to keep them safe (fight for them or flee with them) or is this a time for me to help them be brave?’

‘What am I protecting them from -  danger or an opportunity to show them they can do hard things?’

Then make space for ‘and’, ‘I want to protect them AND they are safe.’

‘I want to protect them from anxiety AND anxiety is unavoidable - I can take care of them through it.’

‘This is so hard AND they can do hard things. So can I.’

Sometimes you’ll need to protect them, and sometimes you need to show them how much you believe in them. Anxiety can make it hard to tell the difference, which is why they need us.♥️
The only way through anxiety is straight through the middle. This is because the part of the brain responsible for anxiety - the amygdala - is one of the most primitive parts of the brain, and it only learns through experience.

The goal is for kids to recognise that they can feel anxious and do brave. They don't have to wait for their anxiety to disappear, and they don't need to disappear themselves, or avoid the things that matter to them, in order to feel safe. 

There is always going to be anxiety. Think about the last time you did something brave, or hard, or new, or something that was important to you. How did you feel just before it? Maybe stressed? Nervous? Terrified? Overwhelmed? All of these are different words for the experience of anxiety. Most likely you didn't avoid those things. Most likely, you moved with the anxiety towards those brave, hard, things.

This is what courage feels like. It feels trembly, and uncertain, and small. Courage isn't about outcome. It's about process. It's about handling the discomfort of anxiety enough as we move towards the wanted thing. It's about moving our feet forward while everything inside is trembling. 

To support them through anxiety, Honour the feeling, and make space for the brave. 'I know how big this is for you, and I know you can do this. I'm here for you. We'll do this together.' 

We want our kiddos to know that anxiety doesn't mean there is something wrong with them, or that something bad is about to happen - even though it will feel that way. 

Most often, anxiety is a sign that they are about to do something brave or important. With the amygdala being the ancient little pony that it is, it won't hear us when we tell our kiddos that they can do hard things. We need to show them. 

The 'showing' doesn't have to happen all at once. We can do it little by little - like getting into cold water, one little step at a time, until the amygdala feels safe. 

It doesn't matter how long this takes, or how small the steps are. What matters is that they feel supported and cared for as they take the steps, and that the steps are forward.❤️
So often the responses to school anxiety will actually make anxiety worse. These responses are well intended and come from a place of love, but they can backfire. 

This is because the undercurrent of school anxiety is a lack of will or the wish to be at school. It’s a lack of felt safety.

These kids want to be at school, but their brains and bodies are screaming at them that it isn’t safe there. This doesn’t mean they aren’t safe. It means they don’t feel safe enough. 

As loving parents, the drive to keep our kids safe is everything. But being safe and feeling safe are different.

As long as school is safe, the work lies in supporting kids to feel this. This is done by building physical and relational safety where we can.

Then - and this is so important - we have to show them. If we wait for them to ‘not feel anxious’, we’ll be waiting forever.

The part of the brain responsible for anxiety - the amygdala - doesn’t respond to words or logic. This means the key to building their capacity to handle anxiety isn’t to avoid anxiety - because full living will always come with anxiety (doing new things, doing things that matter, meeting new people, job interviews, exams). The key is to show them they can ‘move with’ anxiety - they can feel anxiety and do brave. Kids with anxiety are actually doing this every day.

Of course if school is actually unsafe (ongoing lack of intent from the school to work towards relational safety, bullying that isn’t being addressed) then avoidance of that particular school might be necessary.

For resources to support you wish this, I wrote ‘Hey Warrior’ and the new ‘Hey Warrior Workbook’ to help kids feel braver when they feel anxious. 

And if you live in New Zealand, I’ll be presenting full day workshops for anyone who lives with or works with kids on the topic of anxiety driven school ‘avoidance’. For more details see the in the link in the bio.♥️

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