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When Someone You Love Has Depression


When Someone You Love Has Depression.

Depression builds walls around people and between people. When someone you love has been dragged inside those walls, there can be a distance between you both that feels relentless. You miss them, but they’re right there beside you, except that they’re kind of not. Not in the way you both want to be anyway.

The symptoms of depression exist on a spectrum. All of them are normal human experiences, but in depression they’re intensified. Not everyone who has depression will have a formal diagnosis, so knowing what to watch out for can help to make sense of the changes you might notice.

Depression looks like a withdrawal. It feels that way too. It’s a withdrawal from everything that is enriching and life-giving. Depression sucks the life out of life. That’s how it feels. When depression bites, everything becomes hard. Life starts to hurt. Those who are bitten stop looking forward to things. They stop engaging and they stop enjoying things, even the things they used to love. They can feel hard to reach, and sometimes they can be angry or appear as though they don’t care. That isn’t because they want to withdraw from you or push you away, they don’t, although it can feel that way. 

Here are some ways to fight for them, beside them and for the times the fight has to be theirs, behind them:

  1. Depression is never a choice.

    If people with depression could be happy, they would be. Depression leaves people feeling as though they’ve been scooped out with a spoon. It’s a hijacking of everything that feels good. The hopelessness, emptiness and loneliness is relentless. If they knew how to be any other way, they would be. 

  2. It’s okay to feel frustrated or angry.

    The helplessness of loving someone with depression can be frustrating, exhausting and lonely. It’s okay to feel angry at times, or as though you want to throw your hands in the air and walk away. You’re human and when you love someone with depression, there will be times that you’ll be in the arena too, fighting the battle. Remember that you’re fighting a common enemy and it’s depression, not the person beside you. Try to see through the symptoms to the person you know, because they’re in there.

  3. Depression is a withdrawal, but not from you.

    When you love someone with depression it can feel as though you’ve lost them for a while. The person you’ve always known and loved is still there, but they’ve withdrawn into themselves, away from the pain and hopelessness of it all, not away from you. It just feels like the safest place to be, but it doesn’t mean that they wouldn’t have you right there with them if they knew how to do that.

  4. You’re grieving too.

    Depression steals people. If the depression has been around for long enough, you might feel a sense of grief. If you need to get angry, sad, or fall to your knees some days, that’s okay. You’re fighting a battle too. It’s okay to pull back to recharge now and then. Be kind to yourself and do something that replenishes you. Reach out to someone, but don’t lean on the person with depression. People with depression already see themselves as a burden, and anything that inflames that might cause them to withdraw even more.

  5. When nothing is as powerful as something.

    People with depression won’t always have the words and will feel the burden of being with you when they don’t know what to say or do. Let them know that you love that version of them too – the one that has nothing to say, or plenty to say but no will to say it. Let them know that you’re there for them even if they don’t want to talk. Silence with someone can be lovely when you’re depleted. ‘You don’t have to be anyone different to who you are. You don’t need to change or pretend or put on a happy face. I love you and I’m here for you.’

  6. People with depression are strong.

    People with depression are some of the strongest people I’ve met. They have to be. The pain and hopelessness of depression is immense and to keep existing day after day under the weight of that takes an almighty fight, fuelled by almighty strength and courage. 

  7. What they’re doing makes sense.

    We all have needs we can’t give up. They’re the big ones and they’re an inescapable part of being human – love, validation, respect, visibility, safety, influence, connection, appreciation, purpose. You know the ones. When one of these needs isn’t met, the temptation can be to push it down – to ‘depress’ it – to where it’s out of awareness and can’t cause trouble. But of course, any symptom whether physical or emotional will always cause trouble when it’s ignored. It takes the strength of a warrior to keep pushing things down, and getting on with life. Eventually, when people have been strong for too long the armour will crack. Depression hurts, but it makes sense. It’s a creative, adaptive withdrawal from a world that feels painful to be in.

  8. Being positive probably won’t work.

    Reframing things positively is generally done with loving intent, but most likely it just won’t work. The messages that are sent with love will likely be received as ‘nobody understands’. For someone who is being caned by depression, there is no positive. Research has found that people who are already unhappy don’t want to be talked into the glossy view of life, they just want understanding. The view of reality is shaped by a lifetime of experience and sometimes, the way people see the world is exactly the way the world is for them. Trying to push against this can work against what you’re trying to do and intensify the loneliness and desperation of it all. Reframing things in a positive way is important, but it can’t be forced.

  9. So if positive is out, what then?

    You don’t have to fix anything or change anything. If there was a way to do that, they would have done it themselves by now. Instead, acknowledge their pain, ‘I know this is really hard for you,’ and validate what they’re going through ‘I know you’re hurting. That’s understandable given what you’re going through’, or ‘I know you’re fighting a tough battle right now.’ Be the one who can be with them without having to change them. This will probably explode your own feelings of helplessness, but reworking things towards a positive angle will ease your helplessness, not theirs. That helplessness you’re feeling is the bit you’re doing together. So is the pain and the confusion of that. That’s what makes your love unconditional and your support something extraordinary.

  10. Try not to let the negative talk go on and on and on and on and …

    It’s really important to hear people from where they are, but if the discussion of a negative thought goes on and on and on and starts to feel circular, it’s not good for anyone. It’s called rumination and it can make it harder to move through depression. Talk about it with them for sure, but try to persuade the conversation in a different direction after a while if you can.

  11. If you’re struggling for words, let those be the words.

    There’s no need to gloss it up. The truth is that it’s hard to know what to say because there’s nothing that can take away the pain. Don’t worry about saying the ‘right’ thing, there is no right thing. Instead say the ‘real’ thing with love and an open heart. Share what you’re feeling, because chances are that they’re feeling it too. Common ground will shrink the distance between you. You might not be depressed, but chances are you’ll be feeling a lot of the things they’re feeling – sadness, confusion, frustration, helplessness, and the greatest wish that you knew how to make it better. ‘I wish that you weren’t in so much pain and I wish I knew how to soften things for you, but I don’t know how to do that. What I will do is be here for you for as long as it takes.’

  12. Ask them what you do that doesn’t help. And listen.

    Depression can be different for everyone. You can’t be expected to know how to respond. Ask what they need from you and whether there’s something they need you to do differently. Be open to the response and don’t take it personally.

  13. Don’t ask them what they’re depressed about.

    When people are sad they generally have an idea of why. Depression doesn’t always work like that. Sometimes people will be aware of what has triggered their depression, but sometimes it won’t be obvious. On paper, people with depression can look as though they have everything to be happy about – they can even believe that themselves – but depression doesn’t play by any rules.

  1. Try to initiate the things they used to love, that depression has stolen.

    At a time when people need connection the most, depression forces distance. Do everything you can not to let it. Connection and positive feelings strengthen the brain against depression, and exercise can cause the same changes in the brain as antidepressants. The problem is that the very nature of depression will hold people back from doing any of these. Don’t wait for them to feel like doing things. They won’t. Their depression won’t let them. Depression is there to nurture withdrawal, remember. It does this by stealing motivation, and creating exhaustion. Be tender, gentle and loving and reintroduce them to life, connection, and positive feelings. You’re likely to get resistance, and a lot of it. Know that this isn’t personal and do what you can do anyway.

  2. Another reason to initiate.

    Thoughts, feelings and behaviours are intimately connected. They tend to follow each other, so someone with depression will think depressed thoughts (‘Nothing makes a difference’; ‘I’m useless’), feel depressed feelings (pain, hopelessness, exhaustion) and this will drive depressed behaviour (withdrawal and a depressed mood). A change in one will eventually lead to the other but the change is unlikely come from the person with depression. Out of the three, thoughts and feelings are the toughest to change. They’re tenacious. This is why things like, ‘get over it’ or ‘it’s not that bad’ or ‘just try to be a bit positive, hey?’ won’t work. The best way is through their behavior, but you’ll have to be stronger than their depression. Initiate walks, dinners, holidays – anything that has the potential to create positive feelings. Take their hand and lead them there gently.

  3. They are not broken.

    There is nothing abnormal about the symptoms of depression. They’re a very normal part of human experience, but with an intensity that’s relentless. We’ve all felt sad, disconnected, the need to withdraw, hopeless, helpless, exhausted, and as though the fun has faded for a while These are all common experiences, even if only fleetingly at times and from the kinder end of the spectrum. What makes these very human experiences lead to a diagnosis of depression is a question of degree. People with depression experience the same we all experience, but at a different intensity, duration, or cluster of symptoms. 

Depression rarely takes hold of just one person. When depression settles into someone, helplessness, fear and sadness bleed through the walls it builds around that person and into the lives of those who love them. It’s exhausting for everyone. There is always a way through depression but it takes an almighty fight. You won’t always have it in you to fight alongside them and you won’t always know what to do but that’s okay – you don’t have to do any of that to fight for them. Few things are as powerful as human connection and anything you can do to nurture that will help to put back what depression strips away.

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Hi there,

I have been dating my boyfriend for 8 months now. A month before we started dating he lost his father. We met and had an instant connection, we talked for hours and hours and everything felt so natural. We talked about the future, and I thought that this was my happy ending. About 5 months into the relationship, his depression and grief set in. He wasn’t as affectionate and he became unmotivated and reserved. We had a couple discussions about it and I tried to listen to him whenever he was able to talk about it. He told me he felt broken inside and that he was a shadow in his own life but he wasn’t ready to do something to fix it. He slowly started to withdraw from me physically. And then around 7 Months I got frustrated and upset with him. And I gave myself a couple days to collect my thoughts before reaching out to him again, he was short with me and Avoided meeting with me. Said we would talk later. He hasn’t spoken to me in over a month now. There was no explanation nothing. I gave him some space because I know how hard the holidays were during times like these. After the holidays I reached out saying I would come by to visit to get something from his house. He responded but only to say it wasn’t a good day to drop by. I’m having a hard time accepting the fact that this is his way of breaking up with me. He was always very supportive, caring and loving. And for that to shut off so abruptly is hard to comprehend. My therapist says that he needs space and that I have done everything I can but it’s eating me up inside. Everyone says I should walk away from him but I don’t feel ready to do that yet. I love him so much and I don’t want to give up on him but at the same time I’m tired of feeling sad all the time. How do you know when to walk away?


This is beautiful it made me cry. Thank you. 🙂

I’ve been with my boyfriend for 2 years now. He is so wonderful our relationship was so amazing. He has depression and anxiety but it got worst when his grandfather passed away. I really don’t know what to do cause i feel so helpless and alone. Maybe i’m not patient enough with him, maybe i’m being a terrible girlfriend. I am stuck on the DO NOT KNOW. Just floating, hoping our relationship is still something to fight for. We started arguing a lot and just feeling sad for 3 months now(ever since his grandfather passed). I’m tired, I want to learn to be patient through his time but… i’m just tired. I want to make this work. I really do.
I haven’t tried all of these listed in the article, but i will try my best. Thanks for the venting hehe.

Chris G

I haven’t been on this post in months because my relationship with my significant other has been long passed but if I have one piece of advice to give to you all dealing with someone who has depression is to try to give them their space. I didn’t realize this until after the fact but I spent so much time trying to help her get better and constantly worried about her, I didn’t realize I was smothering her by not giving her any space. We have to realize as much as we want to help the one we love at the end of the day it’s going to be up to them to pull themselves up out of that dark place. Help however you can just make sure it’s not to much on said person. I pushed mines away, maybe for good and I regret it everyday. That’s all


Hi Chris, Thanks for this reminder. You are so right about trying too hard. I know I have done this a lot and am trying to stop. For one thing, my husband has told me how guilty he feels about putting me through this hell with him. The more I hover over him the more guilty he probably feels. If I can let go, do my own thing and get some enjoyment out of life, he feels better, knowing that support is always there if he needs it. Easier said than done though.


It is hard to see someone you care about being depressed. I’ve been depressed for quite a few years now, and am finally starting to get out of it. But now my sister, who is a few years younger than me, has been telling me she’s depressed. I don’t know if she really is, or if she’s just going through a rough few weeks, but I’m not going to tell her she isn’t. That wouldn’t do any good. But it is hard. Oh gosh it is so hard. I want to be there for her, but I’ve never been good at talking and I get super anxious because I don’t want to mess this up and it’s honestly so frustrating. I need to find a balance between being there for her and being there for myself. I do not want a relapse. But I don’t want her to fall as far as I have either. Gosh, I never wished this upon her. Depression is a shitty thing, and man oh man how I hate it. I’m sorry, I just really needed to vent, haha. I wish I could take it from her. As absolute awful it was, I would gladly relive the past few years of darkness if it meant she wouldn’t have to. If anyone has advice… Because gosh, I am stuck here.


You really need to protect yourself here. It’s fine to be there and help your sister, but for your own health, try not to absorb her feelings.
It’s easy to get into “fix mode” where you feel it’s your responsibility to help because you’ve been there yourself but just tell yourself she is her own person and will deal with her issues and you have your own to take care of.

It’s very hard, even moreso when it’s close loved one.


Sometimes I’m encouraged when I see all the comments on articles like this. It reminds me I’m not alone. My depressed ex left almost a year ago saying I deserved better and he needed to spare me. He never came back. We loved each other so much at our best. I still love him tbh, but I had to give up trying to reach him. It’s def confusing and heartbreaking to be pushed out of someone’s life– and told it’s for your own good. I know how bad it feels and how badly you want to fight for them. If only it was our battle to fight… thoughts and prayers for all of you still trying! For those of you who also had to give up it does get easier with time.


Depression goes hand in hand with negative thought patterns. You find yourself ruminating about the painful past or feeling anxious about an uncertain future. And as you lose faith in yourself that you can pull through adversity, you learn to practice negative self-talk and adopt other unhealthy habits. You start to become unkind to yourself. You or people you love may be struggling with this condition in silence. The more you understand, the sooner you can start dealing with depression.


This article is extremely helpful. I’m trying to support my husband who has suffered from depression for many years but is going through a serious, deep recurrence right now. I think I’ve been doing many of the things your article suggests, but not all of them. Will really watch out for too much reframing negative to positive – you’re right that this helps me more than him. I’m sure I’ll re-read this from time to time, especially when I feel I just can’t cope on my own. Thanks.


Wow thank you all. This is a great article, just what I needed…. when you love someone who is suffering with depression it is a real help to know you are not in this alone.


Hello, I’m dealing with a similar situation. My boyfriend has high functioning depression. When we first started dating it was perfect. He was a friend of my sister’s for awhile and we just clicked. I felt I finally found that perfect person for me. I know relationships have there ups and downs. But when he told me about his depression. I didn’t know how to react. He took back his I love you saying he can see us going somewhere but couldn’t say those words when he can’t genuinely feel them. Basically hes numb inside can’t feel passion or anything. It’s starting to be very painful I can’t help but think is it worth being with him. When he may never love me. We were friends before this and it’s hard to say good bye to your best friend knowing he will probably shut out everyone and keep to him self. If and when we break up. I feel myself going back and forth with the idea knowing I putting myself in pain. But I love him can’t stand the idea of not seeing him. We are still new, December will be the mark of our 6th month. And I made a promise to myself I will end it on our year mark. If he still don’t know he loves me. Cause all this would be easier if I knew he loved me. I know depression isn’t something you can just go away. But I miss the man I fell in love with..hes been gone for awhile.


2 years I was with my BF and out of the blue he ends things. 4 months later we talk on occasion he tells me he doesn’t know what he wants and he doesn’t know what to do, but he doesn’t want me to walk out of his life. He tells me I’m to good for him and what I need he can’t give me, he doesn’t want to hurt me but he doesn’t deserve me . I know he does fight with depression but I don’t know what to do. It seems like he is so distant and doesn’t want to have a life. Twice he has tried to take his life and im scared for him.He goes to work and then home unless his mother needs him to do something.. I don’t know what to do, I don’t want to loose him but I don’t know how much more pain in can take. I want my best friend back. I have begged him to just be a friend, no strings but he needs a friend someone to talk to and someone just to do some things with.


Thank You very much for this articel and also for finding a place of understanding.
I and my boyfriend are in a relationship for more than 7 years now. He suffers from deep depression. I know he has suicide thoughts, but lives for me, to not ruin my life if he would end his. I am thankfull that he lives, but feel as a chain putting him more down and holding him in the painfull life he lives. Unfortunately we have also other problems in our relationship, which are mainly caused due to healthproblems – specifically because of me we can´t have sex. We love each other, i know it, but it is really hard, when after such a long time we don´t see an improvement. Sometimes i think, there is no solution. I know i´am hurting him by not knowing enough about depression as an illnes. But sometimes i feel weak and need support, which he can´t give me. And although i understand it, at the same time it doesn´t chage the fact, that i need some support from him – otherwise i feel really alone and we have only each other. He doesn´t have any friends and i don´t have any, with whom i coult talk about depression. Unfotunatelly most people don´t try to help and see depression just as a burden and they then leave him, because they don´t want any negativity in their lives. i get it, but at the same time think a true friend won´t back down and leave. How can i get my boyfreind to see him with my eyes as an loveble man with many qualities? So his selfesteem would rise and he would feel better? He doesn´t approve of any psychologist or medication. I know i can´t push him, but i doesn´t have enough experience and knowedge to be of enough help to brake him free…


Hello RAIN, I know exactly where you’re coming from ,I am going through the same thing as you are. I have also been dating my boyfriend for six years he also suffers from depression,he isn’t in denial of it but doesn’t go get psychological help. See, he finally opened his eyes and ears about 4months ago and is no longer in denial but I think now he is on the next phase to where he doesn’t want nor can’t cope with the idea and still doesn’t get the correct help that he needs. He had mentioned to me about a month ago that he can’t believe that now he would have to live off of medication and see a psychiatrist for the rest of his life and that all this time he always thought this is just who he was and his personality but now he has to come to realization that that’s not who he is and he says he feels like he needs to start all over and I believe that made him more depressed. We are no longer together at this moment because he goes through a phase where he breaks up and comes back around and so on and so forth for the past four years. It’s not getting any better because he has no help but because he chooses not to .I’m always here for him when he does come back around but we cannot do anything for them other than to support them if we choose to be by your side. I have studied in depression by articles books and YouTube so that I can have tools to cope on a daily basis and to understand more where he comes from. Read the book Depression Fallout it help me see what other partners go through as well as understanding why he acts the way he does and tools that I can use. This article by Karen Young started my insight on depression it helped me and I took it upon myself to continue to study about it. I hope it helps you as it did for me .


My girlfriend and I have been off and on for the past 2 years. About 2 months ago she started to distance herself by always sleeping, or being on social media, or was busy with college homework. It’s now 2 months later and her depression is so severe that she feels numb/empty/doesn’t care to live. She suffers from anxiety, panic attacks, and has been stressed about her schoolwork. She just started seeing a psychiatrist and psychologist and just started medication. She has panic attacks, doesn’t want to take a break from school because of her career plans though her stress is from school, and will not be hospitalized. She hasn’t told her close friends what’s going on with her, only her parents.

She told me that something changed between us and that she didn’t want to be in a relationship anymore, she will be going to grad school and doesn’t know what she wants. I left to visit my family for 10 days and in that time frame she started sleeping with someone else daily. When I got home I found out, she admitted to it, and wanted to work things out. But 2 days later she told me the same things all over again about not wanting to be in a relationship with anyone, it’s not fair for me to wait for her, she loves me and is in love with me, she doesn’t feel like herself/empty inside. Also, she’s not looking for anyone but if she gets drunk and sleeps with someone then it happened.

This is the woman I wanted to marry and have a life with and to see her on such a destructive path tears me up inside. She is the best person I’ve ever known and I just want her to be happy and get better. I told her that I love her and will be here for her to get through this to which she said she appreciated it. However, she doesn’t need me to be here for her and she spends most nights at friends houses, going to new places with those friend, and meeting/hanging out with new people on social media as “friends.” This is not like her, she is a homebody, and not a very social person.

Depression can make people act erratic, take risky behaviors, and do things they wouldn’t normally do which is what she is doing. I live with her and don’t know what to do from here. Is depression an excuse to sleep with someone else because “you’re bored and men are easy” when you say that you’re in love with someone being supportive of you? Do some people with depression sleep around just to try and feel something?

I need some advice because I’m just trying to figure out the best resolution for both of us. I don’t know if she is lost because of her depression or if she really feels that she doesn’t want to be with anyone/me? I don’t want to hold on to the hope that things will work out if she really means what she is saying and it’s not her depression talking. I can tell we’re still in love with each other and I want to be there for her but it’s hard to be friends/roommates with someone you’re in love with if they’re going to see other people or not agree to working on the relationship. What am I missing?


As someone who is likely depressed, I can comment on the risky behaviors. Sometimes I feel like I know things will turn out bad, it’s just a matter of time. Soon enough everyone will dislike me or leave altogether. I’ll get fired from my job or any other number of bad things will happen. The bad behavior is just a way of accelerating the inevitable. I feel like she’s going to leave soon anyway, might as well stop talking to her and/or help her realize what I already know… That I’m not good enough for her, she’s wasting her life being with me and she’s better off without me. She’ll leave like everyone else. Then it’s just a waiting game to see if I’m right.


Thank you for posting this. Except for living with each other, my ex and I are in the exact same boat. I can’t believe how similar your situation is. We’re both freshmen in college and had been dating for 2 1/2 years. About two months ago, I started to notice her withdrawing a little bit, then about a month ago it got to the point where she said that she needed space and said we needed to take a break. She said that she didn’t know who she was anymore and was very stressed out and even contemplating hurting herself. She has had problems like this in the past before we started dating, but never this bad. She has been so stressed over schoolwork and work (she works way more than she needs to) that I think it just finally got to her and led her to withdraw from everyone who loves her. She can’t say “ I love you” to anyone right now, including her parents.

We have continued to talk throughout all of this, and I’ve learned that she has her good days and bad days. When she’s having a good day, she’ll text me and maybe even suggest that we go out to eat sometime. But when she’s having a bad day, she doesn’t want anything to do with me. This hurts and confuses me a good bit, but I have to learn not to take it personally because she’s not the same person that she used to be right now.

As sleeping with other men goes, she has told me that if the opportunity came up at a party, she would sleep with them. However, she also tells me that she still loves me and wants to get back together after she gets better. It would really hurt me if I found out that she slept with someone else because I know deep down she still loves me, but I can’t do anything about it. She’s said that she doesn’t want to be controlled, and so me doing anything about it will just make her want to do it more. Just have to stay strong for her.

I love this girl so much, and would do anything for her. We really had a type of chemistry between us that I have only seen a few other couples have. Even though we are young, we have talked about the future before and we both agreed that we might be the ones for each other. If we were still together after we finished college, I was planning on marrying this girl and spending the rest of my life with her, but that all seems like just a dream right now.

She just went to her first therapy session yesterday and said it went well, so hopefully the worst part is behind us and she will get a little better each week from here on.


Thank you for this article. I am going through tough times right now. I have been married for 17 years and my wife has been diagnosed with depression and she always put on a very brave and happy face that sometimes I don’t even know if she is under the cloud. Then last 2 weeks she said she wanted to leave me and our 3 kids and that she thinks that would make her happy, I let it go for a bit thinking that it is the depression talking but after sometimes even when she is in her “normal state” she still talks about being alone. Do you think that it is still her depression talking? BTW our kids are ages 15, 13 and 6


This is a great article. I have been trying to figure out why my girlfriend has been feeling the way she does. I tend to feel really useless in how to help her and have now been feeling like I cant help. She also has major anxiety. I have been feeling really useless and kind of put at the end of the list of priorities for her. She says she still loves me and that she is happy with me. But I just feel like I cant make her any happier then she is now or make her feel not as sad.


Thank you so much for this..

I’ve been driving myself crazy second guessing what could have possibly gone wrong in my relationship, but I can see now I’m not the only one going through this.

Last week completely out of the blue, my boyfriend ended our relationship saying he hadn’t dealt with a particularly bad break up he had last year.
I had no idea he was still feeling like this, and he didn’t give me any signs anything was wrong.

He mentioned he’d had depression last year, and I’m now convinced that’s what is happening now. I know you shouldn’t google, but I wasn’t aware of the signs, and when I did a lot of them related.
He loves his job so absorbs himself into that, and I’m sure he’s probably fine around his friends, but since this happened, he has not spoken to me, other than a text message in which he said he was sorry for being “distant”.

I’d almost convinced myself he must really hate me, as he won’t speak/text, let alone explain, but this article and all the comments are so relatable, maybe he just can’t bring himself to do speak, rather than doesn’t want to?!

Let’s hope in time he can find the words, as this really hurts.


Thank you for this article.

I am watching my fiancé slowly fade away into the darkness. I have had my own battle with severe anxiety and depression and I understand what is happening. Still it is so difficult to take. She used to be so affectionate, loving and engaged. Now I watch her face go blank as she stares off into space, her mind wandering, ruminating and racing with negative thoughts. I know that she cannot be present in the moment, she cannot love me because her brain does not have the capacity to do so while it is so filled with darkness, worry, and self loathing.

I am watching the woman that I love disappear into the shadows and I know that I can’t help her, help us, all I can do is watch. Having faced my own demons, I know that she has to fight this fight on her own. Nothing I can do or say will change that. I find myself wondering if the woman I love is gone, if she was ever real in the first place, and I no longer feel the decision to marry her with certainty and that breaks my heart.


Thank you for this article. Some time ago the man I love admitted he was suffering from a chronic depression. I am not sure whether he was diagnosed by a specialist or it is self-diagnosis. I wish I could be a better partner for him and do everything I could to make him feel more comfortable. The problem is he is very inconsistent and self-contradictory in everything he says. I am totally confused about what to do. One day he says that I should never come up to him when he is in a bad mood and I should give him privacy. Another day he says that what he really wants me to do is hug him in such situations “ just ignore what I said and hug me”. When I tell him that I’m confused he gets annoyed and says that I never listen to him (when all I do in fact is listen) and don’t understand him. One day he says he is grateful for everything I do for him and in a couple of hours he might say that I am an awful partner and he doesn’t trust me. He is one of the most intelligent people I’ve ever met and I always trusted his opinion and judgment. I respect everything he says and it’s very hard not to take things personally or to ignore things or to understand what he really needs. What should I do?


This is a tough situation. I have battled depression most of my life and I can say that his contradictory behavior sounds like there is more than depression going on. Depression is no excuse to lash out at people, nor is any other condition or disorder. It sounds like he has you spinning and second guessing yourself and that is not good. It doesn’t make you a bad person if you can’t handle his mood swings, nor are you required to hang in there and take it.

I dont know if this really answers anything for you, just my thoughts on what you said.


Hi there. Thank you so much for the article and the opportunity to talk to someone about my pain. I fell in love with a man who’ s apparently suffering from depression. I didn’t know about it back then when I met him. He was my first and only true love (for I believe the miracle and blessing of true love can be only once in a lifetime). We both were married when we met and both went through the immense pain and guilt of breaking up with previous partners to finally be together ’cause otherwise our lives would have had no sense. And that’s when things started to go wrong. My beloved one gradually started turning into a different person. He started growing more distant and irritable. I could never understand what might trigger it. He could seem positive and cheerful, but the next second he could suddenly turn away and stop talking. When I asked him what was wrong he wouldn’t answer. When I was trying to hug him or kiss him, he would stand stiff like a rock or push me away. And that could last for days or weeks till after my another attempt to talk to him or hug him he would suddenly hug me back and thank for not leaving him and being so patient. He had had his “moods” before, but I had never thought it was a real problem until I started living with him. The worst thing is his unstable mood and toxic behaviour. He can be loving and tender one day and then turn into a different person saying that I’ve never understood him, that I think badly of him and when I try to contradict, he starts saying very mean things to me. It’s just breaking my heart to see that any neutral or positive things I do or say get negative interpretation, and proving the opposite makes things even worse, leads to fights. And I still can’t handle it. He told me that he was probably suffering from depression or bipolar disorder at one of his rare moments of “adequacy”. I started looking for any helpful information about these disorders. I would be very grateful for any advice or word of support from anybody who’s been in the same situation. I feel desperate. Sorry for my hectic writing. I’ve just another bad conversation with my partner..


I am in the same dark situation. I fell in love with a man I let down my walls and opened my heart to him and two years later the cloud of depression and anxiety has taken my heart and crushed it: I find it hard to watch him suffer and refuse to get help, to tell him he is going to ruin us and he still doesn’t get help, to tell him I will support him no matter what and he still won’t even attempt to get help. He left his job and now I have to support us both. We don’t laugh anymore. I’m full of resentment and am honest with him about how I feel: I can’t help it. I feel like he is turning on me telling me I’m not caring I’m not supportive I don’t understand and all I keep thInking is what about my feelings what about my life ?. I didn’t ask for this but I am trying to be the person he needs but it’s difficult when he gets nasty in an argument because he doesn’t like the truth I’m speaking or flies off the handle and starts an argument but then turns it on me and says I’m argumentative!! This is not easy . I have gone from making wedding plans to not talking for days full of anger and resentment . It’s a lonely place being the partner of someone with depression, your feelings have no value , you’re selfish for even thinking about how it affects you and you can’t turn your back on someone that is already suffering…you end up in a dark tunnel yourself . I am strong but I am also angry at his choice to not seek help of any sort knowing that it will break us in time. I am only human and I do matter.


This. I’ve been dealing with this for 13 years. I can relate. That’s all I wanted to say.


Thanks for this information. I’ve been in the same situation with my boyfriend since the end of June. He has good day and functions at work but has no motivation to do anything other than what he has to at work. Very emotional for me and frustrating to say the least. Just trying to keep in contact and check on him occasionally. Hoping he returns to his old self when this passes.


Hello Kim I can relate,
My boyfriend broke up with me on july18, he also can function at work and with others but when he was around me, his and mine he would act differently. He will have his ups and downs from being happy for half the day and agitated aggravated frustrated etc. with me. I felt so alone in the relationship because his love just seem to go away from one minute to another. Anyways I believe that is called a functional depressed person, someone who can just go to work and be responsible out in the world and depressed at home . We are still not together it’s been a month and two weeks that we have broken it off, usually he comes around after the third month of coming off of his depression. He has been going through this from what I know for years and each year seems to be worse as I look back at things. He is not getting any help he doesn’t take any medication and from what I have read they don’t get any better if not getting any help but they do get worse. I also hope he returns to his old self when this passes and then maybe he can get the proper help for himself.


Hey Kim, you’re not alone. My boyfriend also has high functioning depression. It’s hard to see their personality and what made you fall for them in the first place slowly creep away. Hope your situation gets better.


For me the article has explained depression and how to support a loved one through it perfectly.
I have lived with my own depression for 26 years, I’m 56 now and, I long for the day I feel released from it, released from the cell I built around myself. Only I have the key, yet I have no idea where I have hidden this key, I hope that makes some sort of sense.
When I’m depressed I can’t find my way out and this is when a helping hand is so vital. When I become anxious it’s because I’m frantically trying to find the key to lock myself back in the cell, when I become panicked it’s because all hope of finding the key has gone and I feel exposed to danger/harm. I have no idea if this is the same for others who are depressed, it’s how I explain it to myself to get through tough times.
I don’t like being depressed, but something deep rooted is stopping me from being anything other than depressed.
I am an average intelligent woman and I know what’s happening and why, but for the life of me I can’t stop it or change it.
I take my meds but sadly one of the side affects is suicide, I was shocked and horrified when I found that out, as I had attempted to take my life several times. How can an anti-depressant make you want to end your life when there supposed to help you feel better?
Life experiences caused my depression or rather triggered it, as I do believe we all can so easily spiral down into depression, it doesn’t discriminate.
I don’t have any friends, either I’ve pushed them away or they have walked away, both is extremely painful to all concerned, by not having any friends I don’t cause another person pain, but it keeps me trapped within depression.
Thanks for reading


Thank you for this article. My wife has battled Depression for the last five years or so. It is something she has always attempted to fight by herself. Recently she told me she had thought about a life without me, this was after a number of weeks where he Depression appeared to deepen. We are working through this at the moment and after a couple of weeks, she has told me the way she is feeling is not down to me. She does not know what is causing her to feel withdrawn and has talked about not wanting to hurt me or others by discussing it. I identify with almost all of the above article, including making mistakes in attempting to reframe the positive. The last few weeks have been the most difficult of my life, but I know this is nothing in comparison to how my wife feels. She has agreed to speak to someone and this is a huge step for her. I’m committed to helping her and fighting against the Depression and not fighting my wife. I look forward to updating this in the future, hopefully with a positive outcome for both of us. Thank you again for the article, it will be a daily reminder for me.


Hi, I hope you were able to battle the depression you and your wife are fighting. I am in the-same boat right now, My wife is battling the depression and has told me that she would be happier living a life without me and our kids, As much as I tried to understand her depression it is just to painful for me to think how a mom could just abandon her kids . She has been seeing a psychiatrist and on medication for 3 months and it seems to me she looks a lot better where she was a month ago . But she seems decided to live a life without us.


I also wanted to give an update on my situation. I had the chance to skype with my Ex just over two weeks ago and that coversation was awful. He was in a really bad state, but he told me that he felt bad seeing me. He did not want anything to remind him of me because it only hurt him and made him feel guilty. He said he had pushed away his love because it made him feel bad. I really tried to understand what was going on, but he just kept saying that it was too late to save anything. The conversation ended when his computer battery died. He texted a day later and he also unblocked me on whatsapp, but only to say that we had to move on. After that there was no more contact. And then he did not leave a message for my birthday either. I see that he is online all the time on whatsapp and I know that he is surrounded by friends and family. He really doesn’t want or need me anymore for some reason. I have just lost the person I fell in love with. It happened so quickly that I really do not know how to deal with it. There is really no point in holding on, because all I am holding on to is the fact that he can hurt me over and over again. I am so hurt, I am sure it is just as painful as a depression. It’s hard for me to get through every day like this. But I would never hurt the one I love. So, this illness, however it may work, it certainly is not an excuse for hurting people this badly. I think I just have to accept that he is mentally ill and that he will never be the same again. I don’t know how to forget him, but I need to, because otherwise I will just destroy myself and waste my whole life crying and hurting. It’s not supposed to be this way.
Good luck to all of you out there.


Hey Carla, I’m sorry to hear that and I’m sorry you’re hurting, you don’t deserve it. I agree that depression isnt e valid reason to hurt someone who cares on purpose. Tbh I can relate to some things you said. I’m with a guy right now that is depressed. The moment he was down his words hurted me. He didn’t call me names, but when he said things like ”I want to die” or ”Secretly i want that, it’s one of my deepest desires, but my brain says, wait, not yet.” These were his words. Tbh I’m scared to build a future with a person who says stuff like that. What if 5-10 y we have children and we go through something. Would he be strong enough to hang on? I don’t want to end up alone. Is that selfish? Am I being selfish to think that? But then again, these are my feelings, are they less important than his? I’m confused. I’ve also had these thoughts about leaving him. Like that feeling deep inside that tells me to just leave him.


This is something I really needed right now. My absolutely wonderful, funny, beautiful, intelligent and incredible boyfriend has been dealing with depression for many years now. I am very fortunate that we have more good days than bad. For me, the hardest part is when I can feel him starting to take a step back from our relationship and it tends to upset me because I mistake it for him losing interest in me. Thank you for this, Karen – every word rang true to me. I promise I will keep fighting and standing beside my man, he is worth every moment and I love him endlessly.

Chris G

I can say that was the hardest part for me also, not knowing whether or not my significant other was just losing interest in me or it was the depression. Hopefully your bf over comes his depression and you two are happy together.

irene mousley

Why do depressed people take it out on the world.. as if the world owes them something? why is it that whatever you do its not good enough..
Am I expected to give up my life to help every single day?

irene mousley

I’m talking about my daughter. Who has had 2 children and also taken on her nice for the kart 10 years. She is very depressed. Wants a boob job. But can’t afford it as this is getting her very down. She constantly says all the people she has helped and noone has helped her. I try and help as much as I can.. but I work and have problems at home.. nothing I do us good enough.. it’s like I’ve never helped her..I don’t no what to do.. I have an 18 year old who lives at home and frequently smashes the house.. he has mental health issues.. I have another one in prison.. so my work is cut out.. I can’t be there all the time.. to help my depressed daughter.. I try n help where I can.. maybe not enough.. but what I do do..it doesn’t seem good enough.. she seems to hate being a mother..


That’s just it though, depressed people DONT want anything from anyone. I have depression and I constantly worry that I bother people and that I’m a burden to them. We feel bad that we have to ask for help and we feel like we don’t deserve what we get. That’s why we withdraw in the first place. It’s not about YOU; they aren’t trying to hurt you so stop acting like you have it harder. Your views are skewed at best; depression completely alters perception and the views between depressed and non depressed people are as different as night and day.

Chris G

Update on my situation. I finally got to speak to her but it wasn’t anything I was hoping to hear. We are no longer together for the time being because she said she needs time to find happiness within herself and that she couldn’t love me right now. I don’t understand or agreee with her decision but it’s not up to me, all I can do is respect it. She left me with some hopeful words but at the end of the day the girl I love is gone. Who knows, if me and her are meant to be then somehow we’ll end up together. Only time will tell. Anyways just wanted to let anyone who cared know what happened. I’m sad about it, very sad but it seemed she had her mind made up already so I didn’t even argue it at the risk of hurting myself more than what I was already feeling. Time heals all wounds, remember that people.


Thanks for sharing, I’ve just experienced the same thing…my partner leaving the relationship because he’s withdrawn and unable to connect. Feels like he is a completely different person. I don’t feel I’ve had much choice in it at all so am left feeling sad, mad and frustrated.

Lonely Boyf

Sorry to hear this Chris – it wasn’t meant to be but now you can get some closure…


I am going through this right now with my husbsnd. We have 3 kids, and had been together for 13 years. Two of our kids have special needs, so it’s not easy. His issue is with me. On my birthday, he told me that the flirting of a younger coworker was making his rethink his life choices, and he may be going through a midlife crisis . A few days before, he was thinking suicide because he felt his life was falling apart. I lost my job recently, and choose to do freelance from home so I could better support him, but I also work in the national guard, and have enough saved until I get established. I got upset about his crush, and blew up at him. I had to get his parents involved, and he has been staying with them ever since. They got him medically seen, which got him officially diagnosed with massive depression disorder. It is crazy how fast it happened. A month ago, we were good. I noticed he was withdrawing, but things were manageable. We’ve gone through so much together. Two years ago, we went through counseling and fixed another issue. Now it seems there is no going back. I’m full of anxiety, worried I’m going to lose everything we built together. It kills he how easy he tells the kids he lives them, but he can’t for me. I still text and tell him I love and support him, but I don’t know if it helps or hurts. It hurts to hear his voice. I need his support more than ever, and he’s distant and maybe even resentful of me.


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