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When You Love a Man With Low Self-Esteem – 9 Things to Keep in Mind (by Paul Graves)

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When You Love a Man With Low Self-Esteem

So you love a guy with low self-esteem. Sucks to be you. I’m saying that as a dude who used to hate himself. Who still kind of does. I know the crap you deal with. He must drive you nuts.

I was in a relationship with an angel, let’s call her Mary. Mary was such a pure, beautiful soul. We connected. Looking into her eyes filled me with comfort and calmed my fears. Mary loved me so much, and I loved her too. But I hated myself even more. Long story short – I ran away from her love. The love I felt unworthy of. I sought validation and distraction in women, alcohol and career moves. And in many other dark ways I won’t mention.

Low self-esteem is easy to explain yet hard to understand for some. It’s feeling shameful about who you are. Feeling guilty or embarrassed about who you are, deep in your core. You feel ‘different’. Damaged or flawed in fundamental, irreversible ways. You don’t love yourself. Your man may never admit it outright – but he wishes he were someone else.

Alas, there’s no return policy in life. We’re stuck in this skin forever, and the hate, the self-pity – it gets us nowhere. But here’s the rub:

When a man is dealing with low self-esteem, he’ll make mistakes. Big mistakes. My shame and low self-esteem led me to become reckless. I felt a constant, nearly unbearable background anxiety. I had to make myself feel different. I had to escape. Luckily, there were several reliable methods: nonstop partying, irresponsible sex, starting businesses, spending lots of money, exotic traveling. My worst nightmare was being alone, in a quiet room. I couldn’t stand my own company. Maybe your man feels the same way, I pray he doesn’t. But my feelings aren’t unique.

The mistakes I made led to more shame and guilt. And then more mistakes made running away from those feelings. The cycle continues. This leads to what I like to call the 9th dimension of shame. The hole can get so deep. The spiral of pain seems unstoppable.

Your man’s low self-esteem can manifest in a variety of ways. Every guy will act out in his own way. Some pull back and hide, some flee and seek experiences. Others party and rage, or try to prove themselves at work.  It’s troublesome for both the sufferer and the poor individual who loves them so much. Low self-esteem is tricky; the sufferer can distract himself or run away from it for years. He may not even realize that the darkness he feels is low self-esteem. And it’s f*cking heartbreaking.

If you love him, he will need you to get through it. You may be able to show him the light. Don’t give up on him, he needs you. Many times it will be confusing, and he may hurt you without wanting to. (Trust me, he doesn’t want to hurt you. He hurts enough just being himself.)

Here are some important things to remember: a cheat sheet to get you through tough times. And maybe to help him see the truth of his ways.

  1.  He loves you so much, but hates himself even more.

    He’s lost. You two may have such an obvious, beautiful opportunity for love but he squanders it. He only sees his own shortcomings. His pain and depression is like a dark, heavy, thick blanket that he just can’t shake. But like I said above, he may not even realize it. He’s not trying to mess with your head. He’s not unreachable. However he is in a state of constant anxiety, always wishing he could be someone HE loves. If you say ‘I love you’, he probably thinks: ‘Why would you? You can’t. You’re wrong’.

    He yearns to love himself, and the struggle to do that can ruin your relationship. This should be a good thing, right? Not all men act out this feeling in healthy ways. It will be hard but think about their perspective. If they don’t love themselves maybe you can do something to help them. If you love him, do what you can to help his HEART. Buy him books on spirituality, ask him how he feels about himself. Listen, and if required seek the help of a licensed therapist or psychologist.

    A book I recommend is No More Mr. Nice Guy by Dr. Robert Glover. It was a wake-up call, and helped launch my wild journey of transformation. Don’t let the title fool you, it’s a book about shame, self-worth and learning to accept yourself. It’s a powerful starting point, buy it now.

  2. He may seek attention outside the relationship, or activities without you.

    This was a huge factor in my relationship ending. My low self-esteem led me to crave attention from other potential partners. I was addicted to approval and validation from other women.

    Maybe he likes attention from others, flirtation and come-hither looks. I hope you haven’t caught him on dating sites or apps. That was another thing I would do – I craved the attention so much. Maybe he also yearns for people to tell him how cool he is, how great he dresses, or what a sweet job he has. Point is, he’s just crazy for attention.

    He seeks attention and approval from other people – but what about you? Self-esteem is a real b*tch. He thinks that he has to either prove to himself that he’s worthy, or look for evidence of it anywhere he can. ‘If other people tell me I’m great, then that must mean I’m great.’

    It may be common sense to you – that we should all love and respect ourselves as human beings. But to a sufferer of low self-esteem, this isn’t the case. Having low self-esteem is like being in a courtroom. And you’re guilty until proven innocent. He’s shameful at the core of his being. His soul appears blackened, damaged and irreparable. He craves escapes from reality.

    Try to talk with him about this. ‘I think you act like this because you like how it makes you feel, right? Why do you need to feel this way?  Can’t you just be yourself, how you feel now?’ ‘Why aren’t I enough?’ ‘Do you need help learning to love yourself?’

    If your man can’t handle this conversation, consider moving on. He’s not ready. It must be him who makes the changes necessary to heal. It is NEVER on your shoulders to do this for him.

  3. He believes he must have ‘got lucky’. He feels unworthy of you.

    At first he cherished you. You were his prize. He held you close, showed you off to the world. It was intoxicating and intense. But soon, he knew he ‘had you’ and started looking around. The high that you and the new relationship gave him faded. The drug wore off, so he’s seeking fresh supply. He needs more intense intoxicating experiences to feel okay about himself.

    I had an amazing partner in Mary, but I didn’t believe I was worthy. She could see the man I was, beyond the shit-storm that was my life. She saw through my shame and self-hatred but I couldn’t buy it. I was too deep in my own trance.

    I thought I’d got lucky, that I’d fooled her somehow. So I needed to prove that I could be worthy of someone amazing. Does that sound stupid or what? I wanted to be able to ‘earn someone’ who everyone else wanted, to prove to myself that I was a valuable man. Then I could love myself.

    Remember that this isn’t about you – this is about a hole he has in his heart. He needs to know that he didn’t just ‘get lucky’ when he landed you. Don’t let him feel that way! Please, tell him you love him. Tell him everything you think is unique and enticing about him. Don’t make it only about appearance either. If he feels like he fooled you, he will not treat the relationship with the respect. This is an important point.

  4. He may be restless, or always trying to prove something to the world or himself.

    Some call it ‘hustle’ or ambition. Maybe he has grand ideas or entrepreneurial zeal up the wazoo. He wants to create something that will change the world. That’s wonderful, but in his case it may be a cover-up: a distraction from voices in his head. The voices that say, ‘you’re not enough’. He’s trying to create a life that will prove his worth.

    He doesn’t want a life without you. His big dreams or grandiose desires get him out of his head. They give him hope that maybe one day, just maybe he will be able to like the man he is. After he does all this awesome stuff.

    There is nothing wrong with drive and initiative. But why is he so driven? Why does he desire so much?  If we bothered to ask ourselves ‘why’ we want the things we do, we could save ourselves much heartbreak. We’d stop running after so many shiny red balls. We could live with more purpose. Your man should ask himself why he wants to accomplish so much.

    To bring him down to earth, remind him how much life there is to live right now, in this moment. This moment, between the two of you. Kiss his lips, hold his head in your hands. Tousle that hair and look deep into those eyes you love so much. Say, ‘I love you for exactly who you are, right now’. Tell him he is enough.

    The point isn’t to make him an aimless, lazy ass. It’s to make sure he has his motivation and priorities in the right place.

  5. He can be extremely jealous or insecure about other men.

    My ex, Mary, had to think that I was perfect and wonderful at all times. She was my entire support system, and my source of confidence and security. She was my everything. (And yet I treated her awfully – aren’t men the greatest?)

    If I felt threatened or not #1 importance in her life, I would start to lose my sh*t. The low self-esteem inside your man creates an enormous hole. He filled it with you, and sprinkles in other things like vices and attention from others. When you threaten to leave them empty again they go crazy or become irrational.

    He doesn’t want you to suffer. Nor does he want to dominate you. He doesn’t know why he feels this way, but it’s because he hates who he is. In effect it’s self-defense, your actions hurt him. It’s painful enough just being who he is – when you threaten to make him feel even worse about himself … he lashes out or gets uncomfortable.

    Nothing about this is okay. I’m only telling it like it is.

  6. It can be near impossible to get him living ‘in the moment’.

    Many guys with low self-esteem are living in the past. He may be guilt-ridden and woeful over opportunities he failed to seize. Maybe he regrets not doing better in school, or choosing a better college. He might feel like a failure and disappointment to his family. Who knows, the point is he rides himself down all the time.

    Alternately, he’s living in the future. He dreams of a day when he can ‘be happy’. You may feel sad because it seems all he cares about is making lots of money, accomplishments or fame. Or making his family proud. He may seem to leave you out of his utopian vision of the future. But he probably just feels he’ll only worthy of you once he conquers the world. He feels he’s unworthy of happiness until he proves himself. These thoughts consume him and he’s desperate for that sweet moment of relief when he’s ‘made it’.  Problem: it’s never coming.

    You love him exactly as he is, right? Tell him that right now.

  7. True commitment scares the sh*t out of him – but not for the reason you think.

    In my relationship, I was afraid because I didn’t know who the hell I was. The only parts of myself I knew were sh*t. I didn’t feel like a good person, so who would want to be with me? I convinced myself that I was helping by not giving her marriage or children. By not giving her 100% true commitment I was doing her a favor.

    I didn’t believe in myself. I had no faith in my own goodness or potential. I knew I wouldn’t be able to handle the hard times that would come.  My feelings were ‘everything I touch turns to sh*t, so why would I waste her time? It’s doomed from the start, and I do not want to hurt her’.

    No advice here, no matter what he’s going to give you the ‘deer in the headlights’ look. Knowing this may help you understand the complexity of a man. He needs to learn to love himself through the hard times before he can love you through the hard times.

  8. He may enjoy seeing you in pain or suffering for the relationship.

    Sick, huh? Hate me if you want, I don’t care. I come in truth. This is a tough one to talk about. Self-esteem can get so low that a man gets validation from seeing his partner suffer. Seeing a person go through hell for us, feel pain caused by us – can actually give us pride.

    It’s a dose of the ‘I’m worthy’ drug … ‘Look at how this person goes crazy for me, I must be worthy’.

    Enough said, it’s time to leave the relationship. Hurt never justifies hurt.

  9. He adores you – but he needs to learn how to love himself.

    Your guy has to learn to love himself. This includes all the deepest and darkest parts too, the parts that scare him to death. The unfaced and unfelt parts of our psyche are the source of all neurosis and suffering. Carl Jung said that, not me.

    If he only loves a certain part of himself like his looks, the rest of him will just go on undeveloped. In many ways I was like a child before. I avoided pain or sacrifice every chance I could, and I turned into a big man-child. If this is happening to your man, you must stop it right away.

In the end, you can get over this together. The bond between you will be unbreakable, and he will love you forever. He’ll never forget that you were the girl who helped him discover the greatest love in the universe. His love for himself. Stick in there, but develop a plan right away. Not only is he suffering, you are as well. Take action now. If he refuses to draw a line in the sand and change his life, it may be time to walk away.


About the Author: Paul Graves

Paul Graves writes about pain, shame, and better living through self-acceptance at TakeTheLemons.com. He lives in Ohio with his 7-year old daughter and two cats. 

Paul is on Twitter and Instagram.

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271 Comments

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Emptiness and a false self/image that protects the wounded/fragile inner self is indicative of a Narcissistic Personality. Do not be confused in thinking narcissism is loving the self. Its actually the opposite. Read about it.
You can not love someone with NPD enough. They have an deep wound that needs healed before they can learn to love the themselves much less anyone else. They need a qualified therapist. Stay away from men like this or prepare to loose your soul. Just because someone “doesnt mean to” hurt you, doesnt mean the hurt is okay. Walk away. And stay away!

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Ariana

This article was such an eye-opener! I ordered the book recommended, one for him and one for me.
I can see why someone would think that my boyfriend is a narcissistic, self-centered man. But he’s not. He is deeply troubled, and he has, as he alone admitted many demons to fight with. Depression, insomnia, a troubled childhood, all added up and created the man he is today. And what a man he is! Truly! He is wonderful, but he cannot see it. If I compliment him, he recoils immediately. If I tell him I miss him and I love him, he replies on a dry tone , “what’s there to miss?” And I smile and start all over again. I told him he better get used to it, because our opinion of him do not match, but that that does not make me wrong. I see what I see, and I adore what I see.
At times I feel he tests me. At times I feel he pushes, and pushes to see if I will leave him like the others. I told him I’m not going anywhere. His smile was bitter. They are just words, I said. Yes, he reply. But time will prove me right, I continued.
I am light. He is in the darkness, and he doesn’t know how, and doesn’t want to leave there. But I’ll persist. I’ll teach him trust and the power of true love. Unconditional love. I have so much love to give and he needs so much love.
We are not teens. We’re both in late 40s.
This trouble man, this man haunted by a dozen of demons is the love of my life, and I’ll stand by him while he finds his way to the light. “It’s his mess, I’m the messenger.”

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Ariana

I AM his Mary. And I’ll never let him down because I love him so. I am an adult woman in her late 40s, not a child, and this man is so wonderful and so tormented. I am telling him every day that he’s everything I ever wanted, and he fights me when I say it, just like described in the article.
I am enough light to pull him through and out of his darkness. Love conquers all, and I will NEVER give up on him, not I will let him do that to himself. I’ll remain his anchor into light and reality.
He’s so dark and I am so light. I have so much to give, and he needs so much!
Above all, I know he loves me. That’s all I need to know to keep me going and stay strong when he’s kicking and punching at me in a metaphorical way. His wings are broken. Mine would break without him, so…until he’ll get back on his feet, I’ll be here.

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Jewel

Run, run as fast as you can ! And never look back! Low self esteem? Really ? All that to treat someone crap ? Low self esteem is never a valid reason to treat anyone like crap. Once again , it’s all about him. Sounds like Narcissism. Feeling sore for someone never makes things better. It only perpetuates their behaviour. You become an enabler and actually feed his low self esteem. A guy with low self esteem needs to volunteer somewhere where he gets over himself.

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MARY

And what if it still leaves you (Mary) feeling not good enough? I am a Mary and 10 years I have supported my partner by using reflections, understanding issues and going to a counsellor because of the difficulties he suffers through transitions of commitment… 10 years later I still have no child or marriage. It’s painful because I feel like somehow I have failed too because I loved him.

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MC

I am the Mary. Just sent this to the guy I’ve been seeing. Poor boundaries on his part. He is intelligent but somehow has all the traits you mentioned. He asserts himself but gives no room for me to say what I want. Purely a physical relationship to him after being hurt to many times I suppose. Let’s face it, we are both divorced and hurt is a common feeling. To take it slow and easy would be ideal but this was not what this person wanted. I walked away. The absence has been riveting. I wanted a relationship without all this drama. Its like he’s a teenager still.

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Moriah

Ok

I feel like I can relate to Mary a lot in this article. My question is, whats the right kind of help to get? My man just told me he has had low self esteem his whole life and just recently got kicked out of the Air Force. He decicded to become a wildland firefighter. Recently I found some porn on his phone and asked him what that was all about. Apparently, after some digging into the argument, I found out it was some girls from his fire crew told him to look it up. Once I found that out I flipped out and asked why I wasnt enough for him. Now hes opening up about his low self esteem… I’m about to get married to this guy….. What is the right thing for us to do???? All I want is for him to be happy but I just feel lost and dont uderstand how to help.

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Rebecca

I have been ‘Mary’ myself, and read this article and totally convinced myself that this was what I had experienced, but then I read about Narcissists and now believe myself and Mary were actually dating Narcissists…

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Dana P

Amazing article! It’s 1000000% on point! Thank you for sharing. Provides light to someone who has been searching struggling and trying to understand her mans behavior of 10 years. I was that “Mary” Nothing made sense until I read this! Thank you

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paula m

I have experience this for the last year. For this author to tell the woman that it is her responsibility to love, compliment, and make the man feel good about himself even though he treats her with no respect and like a piece of garbage….well this author is completely wrong. Shame on him Men like this need to have a wake up call and GROW UP…act like a real man. You can call it anything you want to but that is exactly what it is…men acting like little boys. I agree with all the women that say..Mary should run like hell…life is too short to pacify some grown man. Lol There are plenty of grown men out there.

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Adam

Any lady who relates to the Mary should run like hell. His misery is not your responsibility. Don’t let two boats sink in one flood.

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Matt

This article has really helped me understand ways I can improve in future relationships with others and avoid hurting loved ones through my own experiences with low self-esteem. As a nineteen-year old young man who has witnessed his own insecurities at work, I am glad to have found this article before engaging in more serious, long-term relationships with others. Throughout reading this, I felt on several occasions that I could relate to the narrator, and I am saddened to know that this is a reality in the lives of so many women. This article has given me perspective as a guide on how to understand my own behaviors can affect others, although I know that this is not an ultimate fix. Thank you for sharing this story!!

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Anonymous

This article makes so much sense. I am the man with low self esteem. What this article did for me was clear up my relationship is struggling and that it is not my wifes responsibility to fix it. Sure i hurt inside but it is up to me to change that. It is not her responsibility and that her behavior change is because of my rotten behavior. I love her so much and cant stand the thought of losing her. So seeing the things i do that need to change is very helpfull. This is my fight not hers. And her love is the prize for coming out on top not her obligation to make me feel better.

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Ginevra

Just came here after a scene with my boyfriend during which he looked at me with undiluted hate in his eyes and actually clenched his fists and jaw repeatedly whie I was asking him what was going on. He is going through a period of joblessness and deep depression and is putting a lot of the blame on me. I can deal with a lot, but being looked at with hate in his eyes just hurts so much. I don’t know if he can possibly love me if he acts like this. And of course, I wonder if it’s my fault and I’m just flawed and unlovable beyond repair. I am heartbroken.

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