When You Love a Man With Low Self-Esteem – 9 Things to Keep in Mind

When You Love a Man With Low Self-Esteem

So you love a guy with low self-esteem. Sucks to be you. I’m saying that as a dude who used to hate himself. Who still kind of does. I know the crap you deal with. He must drive you nuts.

I was in a relationship with an angel, let’s call her Mary. Mary was such a pure, beautiful soul. We connected. Looking into her eyes filled me with comfort and calmed my fears. Mary loved me so much, and I loved her too. But I hated myself even more. Long story short – I ran away from her love. The love I felt unworthy of. I sought validation and distraction in women, alcohol and career moves. And in many other dark ways I won’t mention.

Low self-esteem is easy to explain yet hard to understand for some. It’s feeling shameful about who you are. Feeling guilty or embarrassed about who you are, deep in your core. You feel ‘different’. Damaged or flawed in fundamental, irreversible ways. You don’t love yourself. Your man may never admit it outright – but he wishes he were someone else.

Alas, there’s no return policy in life. We’re stuck in this skin forever, and the hate, the self-pity – it gets us nowhere. But here’s the rub:

When a man is dealing with low self-esteem, he’ll make mistakes. Big mistakes. My shame and low self-esteem led me to become reckless. I felt a constant, nearly unbearable background anxiety. I had to make myself feel different. I had to escape. Luckily, there were several reliable methods: nonstop partying, irresponsible sex, starting businesses, spending lots of money, exotic traveling. My worst nightmare was being alone, in a quiet room. I couldn’t stand my own company. Maybe your man feels the same way, I pray he doesn’t. But my feelings aren’t unique.

The mistakes I made led to more shame and guilt. And then more mistakes made running away from those feelings. The cycle continues. This leads to what I like to call the 9th dimension of shame. The hole can get so deep. The spiral of pain seems unstoppable.

Your man’s low self-esteem can manifest in a variety of ways. Every guy will act out in his own way. Some pull back and hide, some flee and seek experiences. Others party and rage, or try to prove themselves at work.  It’s troublesome for both the sufferer and the poor individual who loves them so much. Low self-esteem is tricky; the sufferer can distract himself or run away from it for years. He may not even realize that the darkness he feels is low self-esteem. And it’s f*cking heartbreaking.

If you love him, he will need you to get through it. You may be able to show him the light. Don’t give up on him, he needs you. Many times it will be confusing, and he may hurt you without wanting to. (Trust me, he doesn’t want to hurt you. He hurts enough just being himself.)

Here are some important things to remember: a cheat sheet to get you through tough times. And maybe to help him see the truth of his ways.

  1.  He loves you so much, but hates himself even more.

    He’s lost. You two may have such an obvious, beautiful opportunity for love but he squanders it. He only sees his own shortcomings. His pain and depression is like a dark, heavy, thick blanket that he just can’t shake. But like I said above, he may not even realize it. He’s not trying to mess with your head. He’s not unreachable. However he is in a state of constant anxiety, always wishing he could be someone HE loves. If you say ‘I love you’, he probably thinks: ‘Why would you? You can’t. You’re wrong’.

    He yearns to love himself, and the struggle to do that can ruin your relationship. This should be a good thing, right? Not all men act out this feeling in healthy ways. It will be hard but think about their perspective. If they don’t love themselves maybe you can do something to help them. If you love him, do what you can to help his HEART. Buy him books on spirituality, ask him how he feels about himself. Listen, and if required seek the help of a licensed therapist or psychologist.

    A book I recommend is No More Mr. Nice Guy by Dr. Robert Glover. It was a wake-up call, and helped launch my wild journey of transformation. Don’t let the title fool you, it’s a book about shame, self-worth and learning to accept yourself. It’s a powerful starting point, buy it now.

  2. He may seek attention outside the relationship, or activities without you.

    This was a huge factor in my relationship ending. My low self-esteem led me to crave attention from other potential partners. I was addicted to approval and validation from other women.

    Maybe he likes attention from others, flirtation and come-hither looks. I hope you haven’t caught him on dating sites or apps. That was another thing I would do – I craved the attention so much. Maybe he also yearns for people to tell him how cool he is, how great he dresses, or what a sweet job he has. Point is, he’s just crazy for attention.

    He seeks attention and approval from other people – but what about you? Self-esteem is a real b*tch. He thinks that he has to either prove to himself that he’s worthy, or look for evidence of it anywhere he can. ‘If other people tell me I’m great, then that must mean I’m great.’

    It may be common sense to you – that we should all love and respect ourselves as human beings. But to a sufferer of low self-esteem, this isn’t the case. Having low self-esteem is like being in a courtroom. And you’re guilty until proven innocent. He’s shameful at the core of his being. His soul appears blackened, damaged and irreparable. He craves escapes from reality.

    Try to talk with him about this. ‘I think you act like this because you like how it makes you feel, right? Why do you need to feel this way?  Can’t you just be yourself, how you feel now?’ ‘Why aren’t I enough?’ ‘Do you need help learning to love yourself?’

    If your man can’t handle this conversation, consider moving on. He’s not ready. It must be him who makes the changes necessary to heal. It is NEVER on your shoulders to do this for him.

  3. He believes he must have ‘got lucky’. He feels unworthy of you.

    At first he cherished you. You were his prize. He held you close, showed you off to the world. It was intoxicating and intense. But soon, he knew he ‘had you’ and started looking around. The high that you and the new relationship gave him faded. The drug wore off, so he’s seeking fresh supply. He needs more intense intoxicating experiences to feel okay about himself.

    I had an amazing partner in Mary, but I didn’t believe I was worthy. She could see the man I was, beyond the shit-storm that was my life. She saw through my shame and self-hatred but I couldn’t buy it. I was too deep in my own trance.

    I thought I’d got lucky, that I’d fooled her somehow. So I needed to prove that I could be worthy of someone amazing. Does that sound stupid or what? I wanted to be able to ‘earn someone’ who everyone else wanted, to prove to myself that I was a valuable man. Then I could love myself.

    Remember that this isn’t about you – this is about a hole he has in his heart. He needs to know that he didn’t just ‘get lucky’ when he landed you. Don’t let him feel that way! Please, tell him you love him. Tell him everything you think is unique and enticing about him. Don’t make it only about appearance either. If he feels like he fooled you, he will not treat the relationship with the respect. This is an important point.

  4. He may be restless, or always trying to prove something to the world or himself.

    Some call it ‘hustle’ or ambition. Maybe he has grand ideas or entrepreneurial zeal up the wazoo. He wants to create something that will change the world. That’s wonderful, but in his case it may be a cover-up: a distraction from voices in his head. The voices that say, ‘you’re not enough’. He’s trying to create a life that will prove his worth.

    He doesn’t want a life without you. His big dreams or grandiose desires get him out of his head. They give him hope that maybe one day, just maybe he will be able to like the man he is. After he does all this awesome stuff.

    There is nothing wrong with drive and initiative. But why is he so driven? Why does he desire so much?  If we bothered to ask ourselves ‘why’ we want the things we do, we could save ourselves much heartbreak. We’d stop running after so many shiny red balls. We could live with more purpose. Your man should ask himself why he wants to accomplish so much.

    To bring him down to earth, remind him how much life there is to live right now, in this moment. This moment, between the two of you. Kiss his lips, hold his head in your hands. Tousle that hair and look deep into those eyes you love so much. Say, ‘I love you for exactly who you are, right now’. Tell him he is enough.

    The point isn’t to make him an aimless, lazy ass. It’s to make sure he has his motivation and priorities in the right place.

  5. He can be extremely jealous or insecure about other men.

    My ex, Mary, had to think that I was perfect and wonderful at all times. She was my entire support system, and my source of confidence and security. She was my everything. (And yet I treated her awfully – aren’t men the greatest?)

    If I felt threatened or not #1 importance in her life, I would start to lose my sh*t. The low self-esteem inside your man creates an enormous hole. He filled it with you, and sprinkles in other things like vices and attention from others. When you threaten to leave them empty again they go crazy or become irrational.

    He doesn’t want you to suffer. Nor does he want to dominate you. He doesn’t know why he feels this way, but it’s because he hates who he is. In effect it’s self-defense, your actions hurt him. It’s painful enough just being who he is – when you threaten to make him feel even worse about himself … he lashes out or gets uncomfortable.

    Nothing about this is okay. I’m only telling it like it is.

  6. It can be near impossible to get him living ‘in the moment’.

    Many guys with low self-esteem are living in the past. He may be guilt-ridden and woeful over opportunities he failed to seize. Maybe he regrets not doing better in school, or choosing a better college. He might feel like a failure and disappointment to his family. Who knows, the point is he rides himself down all the time.

    Alternately, he’s living in the future. He dreams of a day when he can ‘be happy’. You may feel sad because it seems all he cares about is making lots of money, accomplishments or fame. Or making his family proud. He may seem to leave you out of his utopian vision of the future. But he probably just feels he’ll only worthy of you once he conquers the world. He feels he’s unworthy of happiness until he proves himself. These thoughts consume him and he’s desperate for that sweet moment of relief when he’s ‘made it’.  Problem: it’s never coming.

    You love him exactly as he is, right? Tell him that right now.

  7. True commitment scares the sh*t out of him – but not for the reason you think.

    In my relationship, I was afraid because I didn’t know who the hell I was. The only parts of myself I knew were sh*t. I didn’t feel like a good person, so who would want to be with me? I convinced myself that I was helping by not giving her marriage or children. By not giving her 100% true commitment I was doing her a favor.

    I didn’t believe in myself. I had no faith in my own goodness or potential. I knew I wouldn’t be able to handle the hard times that would come.  My feelings were ‘everything I touch turns to sh*t, so why would I waste her time? It’s doomed from the start, and I do not want to hurt her’.

    No advice here, no matter what he’s going to give you the ‘deer in the headlights’ look. Knowing this may help you understand the complexity of a man. He needs to learn to love himself through the hard times before he can love you through the hard times.

  8. He may enjoy seeing you in pain or suffering for the relationship.

    Sick, huh? Hate me if you want, I don’t care. I come in truth. This is a tough one to talk about. Self-esteem can get so low that a man gets validation from seeing his partner suffer. Seeing a person go through hell for us, feel pain caused by us – can actually give us pride.

    It’s a dose of the ‘I’m worthy’ drug … ‘Look at how this person goes crazy for me, I must be worthy’.

    Enough said, it’s time to leave the relationship. Hurt never justifies hurt.

  9. He adores you – but he needs to learn how to love himself.

    Your guy has to learn to love himself. This includes all the deepest and darkest parts too, the parts that scare him to death. The unfaced and unfelt parts of our psyche are the source of all neurosis and suffering. Carl Jung said that, not me.

    If he only loves a certain part of himself like his looks, the rest of him will just go on undeveloped. In many ways I was like a child before. I avoided pain or sacrifice every chance I could, and I turned into a big man-child. If this is happening to your man, you must stop it right away.

In the end, you can get over this together. The bond between you will be unbreakable, and he will love you forever. He’ll never forget that you were the girl who helped him discover the greatest love in the universe. His love for himself. Stick in there, but develop a plan right away. Not only is he suffering, you are as well. Take action now. If he refuses to draw a line in the sand and change his life, it may be time to walk away.


About the Author: Paul Graves

Paul Graves writes about pain, shame, and better living through self-acceptance at TakeTheLemons.com. He lives in Ohio with his 7-year old daughter and two cats. 

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394 Comments

Mike B

I’m a guy, I read this, and tried to understand….if you have low self esteem a woman can’t solve that for you, so stay away from women and man up, you are making excuses…..I call bullshit!

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Toya

It’s not that she can’t help you, but she could just be there to help you, and uplift you and most definitely to inspire you, that people can love you just the way you are, and that might be the time, that, that man really realize it’s time to make a change, so men need to know that somebody cares about them, and they can still love me throughout the good the bad, and the ugly, not saying she’ll have low self esteem herself, she’s just there because she Loves him, Because Love covers a multitude of sins, and most definitely prayer changes things, people and every situation..

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In It For the Long Haul

I have been with my partner for 26 years, married for 24. We knew each other when we were teenagers, moved apart for 15 years, and then moved in together in our 30s after a long-distance relationship where I thought I knew him, thought I understood his struggles, but am now just learning how little I really understood.

After losing his job 4 years ago, and moving away for a year to take a contract (which I supported so he could rebuild his professional self-esteem), this summer I discovered he had 3 emotional affairs and one sexual affair (phone sex) while we lived apart, and one after his return, all with work colleagues (past and present). He has admitted he had these affairs because he needed the constant admiration/affirmation/boosting of his sense of self. He struggled with how his father treated him as a child (called him worthless and generally did not love him unconditionally). He was also molested when he was 8 because he was lured by a predator couple who sensed he could be influenced by compliments. I’ve always known about this background, and I always wanted to be there to soothe his aching soul.

I have ALWAYS understood he has self-esteem issues. That said, his favorite saying is he is “sorry” for doing whatever it is that he thinks I am criticizing him for. I have worked so hard to be patient with him, to compliment him, to explain that he misinterpreted criticism when all that was intended was to point out where I had gone wrong, but all he heard was that he had done something wrong.

I am self-confident. He envies this self-confidence, and also fears it. The challenge for me in our relationship is that the longer I am with him the more I find relating to him exhausting. It is always “about him”: (that he was wrong, that he can’t make me happy), and despite my best intentions to always be positive, there have been times in recent years where I have just simply snapped because always being supportive has drained me to the point of not only having nothing left, but starting to seek out negative attention because it started feeling like negative attention would be better than no attention at all. But, of course, with someone with no self confidence, giving him negative attention only makes things worse. It may have given me a very short-term adrenaline fight or flight rush, but it only hurt our relationship in the long run.

I am seeing all the advice in these comments that someone should run away from these types of relationships. I struggled with leaving after discovering the first affair 6 mos ago, and 3 more affairs 4 mos later. I know that he is currently exploring the psychological challenges he is experiencing, more than I have ever seen him look into it before. He is starting to accept some more things about himself, and how his childhood has shaped his need to escape reality. He is now accepting that he needs counselling (I have been in counselling on and off for the last 25 years to stay strong and work on my own issues). It is no excuse for the affairs, and no excuse for the amount of pain I have endured. However, I know he is making an effort now.

I also know I cannot count on him being able to sustain this positive path. I know he will likely slip again, and I have taken about 5 mos to come to terms with that. Low self-esteem leads to an addiction to seek out constant positive feedback. I know all it will take is for life to throw him another curve ball and he will slip again. And despite everyone’s advice to run away before he hurts me again, I have come to truly learn how to love him unconditionally. I never thought I would come to a place where I could accept that he might cheat on me again, but I see his struggles much like those of an alchoholic or someone with a gambling addiction. He is struggling with a different type of addiction, and I know it comes from the deep pain, anxiety and depression he lives with daily. Does it make it right for him to hurt me because of his pain? No. Do I accept him anyway? A few years ago, I probably wouldn’t have, but after much soul-searching I have truly come to understand the true meaning of the vows to “love someone for better or worse, in sickness and in health.”

I will continue to love and support him. There are times when I feel so empty with him, and then he surprises me with some emotional gem that is enough to keep me going. Am I short-changing myself? Probably. But I also know that I am not perfect. I love him unconditionally, even with his imperfections. I hope he is doing the same for me.

Sorry this ended up being so long, but I felt I needed to tell my story. Thank you for letting me write all of this and for listening to me. Good luck to everyone in their search for what is right for them in these circumstances. We all have to figure out what works best for each of us.

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Lakes girl

Believe me I understand what it is like to be with a man with self-esteem problems. I have been dating a man for over 4 years that had super self-esteem issues when I met him. He had come out of a 2 year marriage that destroyed him as a man.
He was low weight, he called himself a monster, and just would not allow me in.
Well fast forward 3 years and we are in the most beautiful peace filled relationship I could have imagined. He values himself with me, he loves his work, and just is happy.
what was the magic? Time and helping him find ways to divert his self esteem issues. We began hiking and that helped him slowly dissolve all his issues of feeling not worthy. He felt comfortable opening up to me because I refused to judge anything. We are all human and have issues of our own. Whatever caused your partner to be this way is a product of something that damaged him. He has to want to though. My guy just naturally moved forward through the pain and won. I hope the same for you.

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Eve

I’m going through the exact same with my partner. He’s using attention from women to fill the hole when I can’t fill the emotional void to his satisfaction. He loathes himself so much. We’ve just started therapy together and I pray he can gain a sense of self worth and love through it.

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Stephen M

This article has come at the right moment for me. I realise that I come across as confident and self assured. I sincerely love and appreciate my wife. We met 6 years ago and I was in a really good place, confident. I was single after my first marriage for 12 years. I filled the space with other women, and none of them could give me what I really needed – self esteem.
Little by little I put in place things and started to feel better about myself. I was able to be without a woman for 18 months and then I met my new wife.
I felt able to love, to hold my own, to be real and not need her.
I realise now that being married I am now beginning to do feel the same lack of confidence in our couple. I am a little jealous of her, I complain that she is not affectionate enough, I want to be alone with her all the time, I want sex and intimacy regularly.
It seems that I’m back to where I was before, back to low self confidence… and I know the path back to the person I can be is long and hard … I was beginning to wake up to this, to take the responsibility of the my feeling as my own problem. And this article has helped me see that I need to work on my own self confidence to either save the couple I am in with my wife, that I love enormously, or to prepare for the after and rebuilding and preparing for a great long term couple.
In any case thanks for this article and the feedbacks, it gives me the courage to start re-building the inner me … again …

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Lee

This is my man!!! From start to finish…
I’m in the verge of leaving him and then I stumbled upon this article and now I’m conflicted. I think I want to stay but I want to help him so much I just don’t know kow how to…

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Ang

I know what you mean. I have been seeing flags that indicated some self esteem issues, then 3 months in, the boom came and I knew exactly who I was dealing with. He ended the relationship because I accidentally cut a call with him for my cousin. He was feeling rejected and wanted to hurt me deeply. That is where i drew the line. He was expecting me to choose him over my family and couldn’t cope when I didn’t. He has created scenarios in his head that have no basis and frequently labels me as passive aggressive and difficult. There is no acknowledgment of his potential issues and frankly my skin isn’t strong enough to weather his storms. I had to decide to let him go. So I wish you luck with whatever you decide. Don’t forget to put your own mask on first before helping others.

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Anna

Wow, this was such an eye-opening read. Explains a lot about my ex-boyfriend. I was the “Mary” in the relationship.

The odd thing is that he seemed to have a highly inflated self-esteem. Makes me wonder if it was really just low self esteem disguised as high self-esteem. Is that possible?

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Moniek

Hey Anna,

There would be a high chance your boyfriend suffered from narcissism. Those people seem confident and inflate their abilities, but they’re not confident at all. Fake it till you make it is their slogan.

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Tony

Is it just me or I find people who have had multiple partners incapable of long term relationship? A person with a history of hooking up, cheating, one night stands, multiple failed relationships etc likely to fall back to the old ways.

Was in a long term relationship, been single for quite some time. I tend to reject women the moment they mention about multiple failed relationships etc.

I don’t want to marry a woman and later in life have to go through divorce and loose half of my assets.
Even if the law claims that what was built during a marriage belongs to both, I disagree. The earning potential of a man or woman is an accumulation of the effort put in by his/her parents raising them. So in theory, whatever you build in life can be partly claimed by your parents (assuming they were supportive)

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Uli

It sounds like you have also had multiple partners? Do you think you are incapable of having long term relationships? Ask yourself all those questions and what are your answers to yourself? Or are you simply afraid to love someone?

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Lola

Low self esteem men almost always use women as their way of filling the void that’s inside them. And women went we meet these men, we love and accept them as they are because we see the good. We try to “take away their demons” and heal them hoping they can leave the past behind and look forward to a future with you. Usually only lasts for about 6months-a year but after that it becomes exhausting performing all this emotional maintenance on someone on a daily basis. Just to have them make everything about themselves and not give that same type of support in return. We can help the journey, but they have to do the real work. Get into therapy and talk about why you don’t accept or love yourself. Because once you stop performing the emotional maintenance, they’ll feel empty again and start looking for someone else to fill that void. I wish more men could see how terrible this vicious cycle is and how they’ll never be happy if they don’t love themselves FIRST. No women can give you your worth or your self esteem. You have to build it and work at it for a long time. But guys prefer the easy way out, looking for “temporary relief” from the pain. Usually from a co worker or friend when their girlfriend isn’t building them up as much anymore. Ladies…don’t stay if he’s not in therapy and using therapy to heal himself. Separate until he does the work, because he will just bring you down with him. He’s not a bad person, just someone with so much pain that he can’t be there for anyone else until he can be there for himself.

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June

Great reading through the comments and getting further understanding.
I was friends with a guy for 4 years, we met at our children’s camp and instantly hit it off ( platonically but I sensed chemistry). We stayed in touch as friends and when my marriage broke up we chatted more often on messenger. He had been single for 6 months but the relationship ( of 4-5 years – not living together) had left him doubting himself and relationships in general.
He is a very clever, quick witted man who appeared confident. Although he was a fast talker.
His childhood had been messy with neglect and a drunk mother. He had several relationships (now in his 40’s). He loved his children dearly ( full custody). He said he gets stressed, canbe short tempered and struggled with negative thoughts ( could turn a positive experience into a worry, possibly because of old trauma). He was seeing a therapist and she was helping him. He was open and I was falling for him.
During our chats I had told him I liked him. He explained that while he had thought about us he Couldnt give anything decent, I thought this meant commitment ( turns out he meant intimacy as well). He wasn’t ready and wouldn’t be for quite some time. We continued to chat over the weeks.
One weekend he offered to meet up, I made arrangements for us to stay at a friends (2 rooms). He came down, conversed easily, he said he felt attracted to me ( twice). Lots of eye contact and smiles, he opened up more about his life, work, kids…it was great.
That evening ( I stuffed it up 😭). We both said good night and went to our own rooms. I had been married for 20+ years and I was attracted to my friend. I was naive and keen lol. After 10 min I knocked on his door and said can we chat, I lay away from him and we continued to talk, he cried over issues I offered to hold him but he tensed up. We talked further then in the Dark silence, I could feel his hands shaking in bed ( anxiety) he asked ‘ if we get physical what do you want?’ I replied kisses and cuddles.he said he had thought about us like this
We began, I loved being with him, he seemed to as well. He couldn’t sustain an erection and turned and cried claiming he felt like he was cheating on his ex. He was wet with sweat ( anxiety? no workout yet).He asked me to go to my room, which I did. The next morning was awkward. I texted the next day and said I had enjoyed the weekend, getting to know him further and his kisses. His reply pretty much cut me to the core. He wasn’t in the same head space, doesn’t want to mess me around….
From there I was shocked, possibly heartbroken. I replied thanking him and that I was shocked. He replied with it was just timing really, I knew he was still heartbroken. A week later I foolishly offered fwb ( I’d never done this before but wanted some sort of connection – desperate ☹️). He was very disappointed with me and said how could I offer it when he couldn’t do intimacy, he had wanted a connection not this…and we needed a two month break.
Our texts dwindled. I sent a beautiful poem, an apology text, he then blocked me on cell and fb.
I didn’t realise what no contact breaks were and asked him how he was a month in.
I waited 6 weeks then sent a letter ( apology)and an array of sweets for his birthday. He was angry and wanted me to just leave him alone.
I feel so rejected, I adored him.
I feel like I dishonoured him by being intimate.
We never had a proper conversation afterwards to both talk about it. He only messaged ( anxiety with calls?).

Do I hold on.. I am happy to just return as friends.
I hate the rejection, silence, loss of friendship, hurt and heart ache. I see his pain and just want to be there but I keep digging my hole deeper pushing him away.
Is his anxiety ( was I getting too close, saw too much…) pushing me away or did I just ruin it and should I just not try anymore.
I had no idea that this would happen.
Thanks in advance 🙂

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Julie

He is not emotionally available . He opened
Up & that scared him. He doesn’t love himself so he won’t love you . These guys need deep Therapy & often go through life pushing good women away . They don’t feel worthy & often being nice means nothing to them. Move on & let him go.
I have been here before too & hurt people hurt people & sometimes they have to heal over years themself. X

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Lakesgirl

Boy does your story seem like
Mine. My guy got close
To me too and then the next day he called and said he was going to meet his ex wife and felt bad

I fought through stuff I never should have stuck around for. I finally told him I wanted no more of fighting to be with him and for him to go chase what he wanted.

He Came back to me three weeks later and said he wanted to be with me and missed what we had.
I don’t advise anyone going through what I did but he is now a man at peace because I didn’t give up on him. He had to figure out what he really wanted and to stop living life
With such insecurity .

Best to you! If it’s supposed to be it will end up that way . Your friend has some stuff to work through before he can be good for you or anyone.

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Pam

I LOVE this article….you wrote it raw and hit the nail on the head. I am certain the introspection you did to figure all of this out was very difficult and out of your comfort zone. I too, have had a marriage with a guy just like you- I reached out to him today, after reading your story and introspection…I do not know if any of it will resonate with him- I hope for his sake it does. People going through this myriad of stuffing round holes with square pegs are missing out on so much amazing ness- the ability to love themselves, as well as another human being. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for writing this!!!

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Broken hearted

Being with a man with low self esteem is so exhausting, confusing and painful. I was with what I thought was an amazing man who I knew had low self esteem. I showered him with love and things were great. Until I got pregnant and didn’t keep his baby. He slowly distanced from me whilst still keeping me close enough not to leave. I have now found out that in this time he tried to get back with his ex with whom he has children. He clearly is only ready to move on if he knows he has a security blanket of a relationship. He never told me, she did!

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Yaya

You sound like you described a narcissist. Yikes. Low self esteem and low self love are narc traits but obviously there’s much more to narcs that make them actual narcs. Let’s not get this twisted if someone is dealing with a narc there is little things no hope for change and if you stay thinking it will, you will be completely destroyed in the end sometimes over and over. So if they are a narc RUN!! Don’t look back. Close the door and lock it forever.
Now if you’re dealing with a man with low self but is not a narc then I agree you may be able to get through it with them and create an unbreakable bond but I say all this to say KNOW THE DIFFERENCE.
Read up on narcs and what they do and what traits make them narcs. If you check many or all of the narc boxes don’t even bother. Again RUN OR YOU’LL BE SORRY.
If it is just a matter low self esteem read up on that and decide if you can endure sticking by a man with such an issue. Find out ways to help him overcome these issues.
Don’t ever let someone destroy you. Know your boundaries and limits and stick to them at all costs. If you have a hard time doing this maybe it’s YOU that also have low self esteem/self love and you should also be looking into fixing yourself too.
Just be careful with your heart.

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Racheal
Hi all I have been in a relationship for 23 years my partner. has just been diagnosed with Low self-esteem. He has been on dating apps and text a prostitute so we separated and then he had to have counselling on his own . which they told him he had lost self-esteem . and now one minute he said he wants to move back in the next minute he wants time on his own the next minute he wants to marry me the next minute he just wants to think about himself. I want us go to marriage counselling one day he wants to go next day doesn’t .We have four beautiful children together where does that leave me?him. He’s told me they must be more to life than me and the kids. I feel guilty because I should’ve known all the years ago that something wasn’t right. i’m not eating sleeping. Do I let him move back in I live him so much. My heart is so broken Wright now.

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Clara

How did things work our for you in the end ? I am in a similar situation having been with someone 7 years

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Sometimes we all just need space to talk to someone who will listen without giving advice, or problem solving, or lecturing. Someone who will let us talk, and who can handle our experiences and words and feelings without having to smooth out the wrinkles or tidy the frayed edges. 

Our kids need this too, but as their important adults, it can be hard to hush without needing to fix things, or gather up their experience and bundle it into a learning that will grow them. We do this because we love them, but it can also mean that they choose not to let us in for the wrong reasons. 

We can’t help them if we don’t know what’s happening in their world, and entry will be on their terms - even more as they get older. As they grow, they won’t trust us with the big things if we don’t give them the opportunity to learn that we can handle the little things (which might feel seismic to them). They won’t let us in to their world unless we make it safe for them to.

When my own kids were small, we had a rule that when I picked them up from school they could tell me anything, and when we drove into the driveway, the conversation would be finished if they wanted it to be. They only put this rule into play a few times, but it was enough for them to learn that it was safe to talk about anything, and for me to hear what was happening in that part of their world that happened without me. My gosh though, there were times that the end of the conversation would be jarring and breathtaking and so unfinished for me, but every time they would come back when they were ready and we would finish the chat. As it turned out, I had to trust them as much as I wanted them to trust me. But that’s how parenting is really isn’t it.

Of course there will always be lessons in their experiences we will want to hear straight up, but we also need them to learn that we are safe to come to.  We need them to know that there isn’t anything about them or their life we can’t handle, and when the world feels hard or uncertain, it’s safe here. By building safety, we build our connection and influence. It’s just how it seems to work.♥️
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Words can be hard sometimes. The right words can be orbital and unconquerable and hard to grab hold of. Feelings though - they’ll always make themselves known, with or without the ‘why’. 

Kids and teens are no different to the rest of us. Their feelings can feel bigger than words - unfathomable and messy and too much to be lassoed into language. If we tap into our own experience, we can sometimes (not all the time) get an idea of what they might need. 

It’s completely understandable that new things or hard things (such as going back to school) might drive thoughts of falls and fails and missteps. When this happens, it’s not so much the hard thing or the new thing that drives avoidance, but thoughts of failing or not being good enough. The more meaningful the ‘thing’ is, the more this is likely to happen. If you can look behind the words, and through to the intention - to avoid failure more than the new or difficult experience, it can be easier to give them what they need. 

Often, ‘I can’t’ means, ‘What if I can’t?’ or, ‘Do you think I can?’, or, ‘Will you still think I’m brave, strong, and capable of I fail?’ They need to know that the outcome won’t make any difference at all to how much you adore them, and how capable and exceptional you think they are. By focusing on process, (the courage to give it a go), we clear the runway so they can feel safer to crawl, then walk, then run, then fly. 

It takes time to reach full flight in anything, but in the meantime the stumbling can make even the strongest of hearts feel vulnerable. The more we focus on process over outcome (their courage to try over the result), and who they are over what they do (their courage, tenacity, curiosity over the outcome), the safer they will feel to try new things or hard things. We know they can do hard things, and the beauty and expansion comes first in the willingness to try. 
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Never in the history of forever has there been such a  lavish opportunity for a year to be better than the last. Not to be grabby, but you know what I’d love this year? Less opportunities that come in the name of ‘resilience’. I’m ready for joy, or adventure, or connection, or gratitude, or courage - anything else but resilience really. Opportunities for resilience have a place, but 2020 has been relentless with its servings, and it’s time for an out breath. Here’s hoping 2021 will be a year that wraps its loving arms around us. I’m ready for that. x
The holidays are a wonderland of everything that can lead to hyped up, exhausted, cranky, excited, happy kids (and adults). Sometimes they’ll cycle through all of these within ten minutes. Sugar will constantly pry their little mouths wide open and jump inside, routines will laugh at you from a distance, there will be gatherings and parties, and everything will feel a little bit different to usual. And a bit like magic. 

Know that whatever happens, it’s all part of what the holidays are meant to look like. They aren’t meant to be pristine and orderly and exactly as planned. They were never meant to be that. Christmas is about people, your favourite ones, not tasks. If focusing on the people means some of the tasks fall down, let that be okay, because that’s what Christmas is. It’s about you and your people. It’s not about proving your parenting stamina, or that you’ve raised perfectly well-behaved humans, or that your family can polish up like the catalog ones any day of the week, or that you can create restaurant quality meals and decorate the table like you were born doing it. Christmas is messy and ridiculous and exhausting and there will be plenty of frayed edges. And plenty of magic. The magic will happen the way it always happens. Not with the decorations or the trimmings or the food or the polish, but by being with the ones you love, and the ones who love you right back.

When it all starts to feel too important, too necessary and too ‘un-let-go-able’, be guided by the bigger truth, which is that more than anything, you will all remember how you all felt – as in how happy they felt, how loved they felt were, how noticed they felt. They won’t care about the instagram-worthy meals on the table, the cleanliness of the floors, how many relatives they visited, or how impressed other grown-ups were with their clean faces and darling smiles. It’s easy to forget sometimes, that what matters most at Christmas isn’t the tasks, but the people – the ones who would give up pretty much anything just to have the day with you.
Some days are great days. We want to squeeze every delicious moment out of them and keep them forever somewhere safe and reachable where our loved days and precious things are kept. Then there are days that are truly awful - the days we want to fold in half, and then in half again and again and again until those days are too small to hurt us any more. But days are like that aren’t they. For better or worse they will come and they will go. Sometimes the effects of them will stay – the glow, the growth, the joy, the bruises – long after those days have gone. And despite what I know to be true - that these are the days that will make us braver, stronger, kinder and wiser, sometimes I don’t feel any of that for a while. I just see the stretch marks. But that’s the way life is, isn’t it. It can be hard and beautiful all in sequence and all at once.
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One of the tough things about being human is that to live wholeheartedly means to open ourselves to both - the parts that are plump with happiness, and the parts that hurt. We don’t have to choose which one can stay. They can exist together. Not always in equal measure, and not always enough of the beautiful to make the awful feel tolerable, or to give it permission to be, but they can exist together - love through loss, hope through heartache. The big memory-making times that fatten life to full enough, and the ones that come with breakage or loss. The loss matters and the joy matters. The existence of either doesn't make the other matter any less. 
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What I also know to be true is that eventually, the space taken up by loss or heartache changes space for enough of the beautiful to exist with it. This is when we can start to move with. Sadness still, perhaps, but with hope, with courage, with strength and softness, with openness to what comes next. Because living bravely and wholeheartedly doesn't mean getting over loss or denying the feelings that take our breath away sometimes. It means honouring both, and in time, moving with.♥️

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